Let it be...

Shalom... 
Hola .... walaupun sa nda tau apa mo taip.. taip ja la...  hmm... today nothing we do... just a bit kemaskini di system... then na .. lambt kunn dia punya sistem...  any way.. ok jga kli rasa ni.. tpi rasa mcm kosong ja.. huhuhu.. Dont know why.. hmmm... boring. ada jga... penat ada jga... rindu pun ada jga.. ayo...  what ever.. life must go on .. that what I have told to my friends... and for me also.. but seem I am the one who not... like I admit to the end.. hehehe... 
world are too complicated to understand... people there and there... hard to predict what is it.. hahahaha...( poor English)... 
hmmm... that I dont want to complain... everyone have their right to chose.. so dont blame God.. heheh
 kuat pla sa merapuh ni... adoi...   
anyway thank to you my friends... especially who contact me.. ^^ 

May God you always..

hmm..

Shalom

hi.. How are you fella?.. hmmmm..what wrong I dont know... I can't explain it... seem I start to regret.. ^^.. hmmm.. serve you right... koto..
who order you to do that?.. its you.. you.. and none of the its you alone..
ok... stop... and stop.. the story end here.. time is over now..
 and begin a new day...  learn from yesterday.. and never do it again... 
maybe my mistake for the first place... like I don't care.. hmmm..
 yesterday I call both MB and YB.. hehehe.. miss them.. other ask about what just happen hehe..
 doi...both of you ah... hehe... I know you well.. some is serious with their job.. and other buat slumber ja.. hehehe.. just another way to be more mature.. hahahaha~

then another thing.. yai.. what happen... a bit shock bout them lo...  pikir gaduh2.. hehehe. then tau2 just a joke.. cess.. what ever la.. keep it tight la k... NUCS family...
hmmm.... feeling lonely pla di sni ni.. ok la.. bye..

that the answer...

Shalom... 
hi everyone.. huhuhuh.. dont know what to say here... hmmm..
but thank for visiting my blog.. nothing here ... hehehe.. wonder who is in Negeri Sembilan...  
thanks for visit ya.. :) 
hmmm.. no.. I dont know what else to say.. that me... why do I did this thing?..  ayo..
yea.. realizing that silent not a good option so I ask... then the answer just like what I expected..  Yes..
 hehehe.. yea i agree.. that my fault.. and even me if someone do that to me.. there is a reason for me to keep mad to that person.. 
anyway thank for answering my question... I will never ask it again.. (hopefully).. that me.. How cruel I am.. 
what curse me?.. 
why do I can't be more responsible for that?... 
why I can't be serious with that thing?.
do I can't...?
what ever.. I never want this... 
hmmm.... just let it be...

and I am not...

Shalom..

 I want to ask you my friends and my blog reader... thanks for reading although I dont know what I am typing here. Do you agree if I say ..

"to be a brother or sister he or she must be great and perfect"...

 I dont know why I am saying this.. for my friends who know me...

Do I act like a real brother for you?... 

hmmmm...

sometimes... even evertime I think I am not congruent to be call as a big brother for my friends... yes I am not... How can I called as brother with all I have done?... what I have done for my brother and sister… How I’m not ashame to be called as a brother even in my family… I am not much talk to my brother and sister… membisu seribu bahasa,… to my big brother.. how ?.. I didn’t have a good talk to him.. to my sisters.. what?.. just an important thing .. and after that…. Silent…  to my three young brothers.. why I can’t do more talk with all of you?...  whay ?.. why I can’t talk more easily to all of you… yes maybe there is a time that we talk much… but why not all the time? I did not know how to…

to my friends,,, I do care for you… do as a brother…  and I really mean it.. but.. In deep of my heart… I am ashamed.. of what I am doing… like I just pretending to be a brother…

I am lie to myself… lie to my friends… how can I be you brother even I can be a good brothers for my family members…

How shame I am… you call me brother… you call me bro..  I call you sist… I call you sister… I call you bro.. I call you brother…. Proud to be call as a brother…   But do I qualify to be a brother for you?...

Sometimes means everytime… I can’t help my brother and sister…. How shame I am?...  sometime I did not want to understand them.. what I am?...  I just think of myself… even can’t think about other heart… and feeling.. menyakitkan hati mereka adalah.. hurt their feeling…. What I am?...

How I deserve to be call as brother.. without doing the right thing what a BROTHER must do.. to their sisters and brothers?... How cant I not shame ?..

How cant I deserve to be call as you brother.. and I call you sister if I hurt you feeling.. ?..  I cant keep you safe.. I cant take care of you.. even I call myself as a brother for you… I give you poison…

What I am?

Then I realize …  I am not deserve to be your brother… I am not a good and perfect brother… I am not even qualified to be call as a brother at  all… thanks to call be as your brother…  THANKS…