a story to tell you,,,

hmm.... busy. busy.. busy... what on earth it is?... sudahla asigmnt berlambak... ni lagi satu... perempuan ni.. kenapa perlu kejar aku pla.. sedangkan dia bercinta dngan kawan aku.. jadi kenapa kejar aku?.. iya.. aku g kenalkan kmu berdua tpi... kenapa kejar aku.. klau nak minta pertolongan kenapa perlu berselindung knapa tidak berterus terang sahaja? seperti satu perangkap.. aku tak mahu....
aku tahu kau pernah terluka.. dan akulah sahabat mu.. shabat karib mu.. sehingga aku perkenalkan kmu dengan kawan ku... dan km berdua bercinta.. namun aku dan seorang lgi kawan ku menghalang... krana.. baruku tahu siapa sebenarnya dirimu.. dan ku tak ingin kawan ku menjadi mangsa mu.,..
selama ini ku sangka dirimu tulus bersahabat dngan ku.. dngan kwan2ku..
 tpi tergamaknya kmu membuatkan diriku seperti ini... aku bagaikan.. pesalah takut akan kehadiran pak polisi... takut akan renungan mata mu.. takut akan persoalan.. agenda yg dipersoalkan oleh pihak media... aku takut... kau buatku begini.. dan hanya aku dan kawan ku yg menghadapinya... betapa beratnya... bebanan ini... kerana sahabat ku.. aku dan kawan ku menjadi begini.. namun sayangmu kwanku tidak meperdulikan kmi... betapa sayangnya perngorbanan seorang shabat.. dipersia-siakan begitu shaja...
tidak... tidak ku sanggup lagi terima semua ini...
oh sist.. hanya kau sahaja tmpat ku mengadu... selain Tuhan yg maha tahu... hanya kau tmpat yg kurasakan bertapa senangnya hati ini meluahkan segalanya... hanya padamu .. kerana ku percaya segalanya.... kerana ku tahu dirimu pendengar luahan hatiku...
betapa sedinya diri ini... pabila kwan ku.. tidak menghiraukan ku... diala kwan ku.. kawan karibku menghadapi semua ini... ku hanya ingin kongsikan semuanya kepadamu .. nmun kenapa kmu meninggikan suaramu trhadap ku.. aku kecewa... dan sedih.. aku kecewa... dan merajuk padamu..
ada kalanya kmu ingin berbaik dengan ku.. nmun semuanya ku tolak dengan dingin.. walaupun dihati ni mahukan perdamaian.. namun... perbuatan mu masih mengecewakan ku...
hanya yg ingin ku percaya adalah kakak ku.. sist.. oh sist...  ?????
namun kau rupanya lebih dulu dari ku.. kakak ku sda berada dalam genggaman tangnmu. dan kini hanya ku sndiri... ku ingin pergi... ke tmpat yg ku tak akan berjumpa denganmu... ha... ku tahu pa yg ku perbuat adalah benar... walaupun iya sememangnya sukar bgiku... berjauhan dengan mu..
 cuma berikan u sedikit masa.. utk mengubati luka2 di hati ku ini...
maafkan ku kerana begini la diri k sebenarnya.. hatiku terluka dengan semua ini.... biarla masa yg menentukannya...  :(

simple....

"Kind words can be short and easy to speak 

but their echoes are truly endless..."

                                                                                                                                                    ~Mother Teresa

I don't know what I am...

Shallom..
Hola... yea...
hmmm... weird I don't know what I am actually.. now day... not.. everyday.. yea... something that I know but I don't understand.... I don't understand what I am thinking of.. what do I want ... what should I do.. and anything.. like its already plan and I am force to do it.. what an odd thinking.. hehehe
yea.. sometime like I am not what I am... hmm... some people say I am nice person.. but I don't think so.. I am a bad guy.. then when people say I am a bad guy... and what I think.. who are to say I am a bad guy?...
and now struggle to think.. to understand.. what I am.. who I am..
then nothing.. still can't understand.. sometime I ask myself why did you do that?... and blame myself... with I'm already done.. who I am to judge myself?... who I am to again myself?...
worry.. and disappointed...
then.. I try to listen .. try to understand people... but I keep silent.. I just listen... then.. when a time they ask me.. I have nothing to tell.. because I don't understand myself.. ^^
but I care of.. them.. Even I want to cry with them.. cause I can't cry for myself.. try to understand their felling...so that the way I can understand how life goes on.. and at a same time to understand myself.. just like compare their life with you.. and have you done.. ^^
but there is something that I don't really like.. why should I do this... yea... I like to listen... but there is a time that I can't.. and it will blame you.. even me either... then if someone say I am a good person.. then I will accept it.. but deep in my heart I am lying with myself.. like my heart want to shout "You are lying !!!".. aloud.. and it start crying.. hahaha~ then it blame myself.. you are so selfish.. more.. and more....
anything that I want to is... I want people happy... happy with me.. if they smile... or laugh I will be happy.. but.. sometime ... I make them cry... hurt their felling.. and I can be pretend that nothing happen..  for a days..
without regretting...
then... after a week like that... It will come to be my problem... the time that I will regretting with what I did... and it hurt.. hehehe~ serve you right... yea.. then sometime it will be too late to apologize... it will be too late to explain.. and maybe there is no second chance for you... because is too late.. and that you fault..
hehe... emotional pla ni.. ish.. iya... just want to share what I can.. to share.. because I don't know how to.. and what need..
iya.. sda la... nanti keluar pla air mata.. ^^
God strengthen me with Your blessing.. Amen..

Thank you... =)

trpaksa tukar..

Shalom...
Hola... hmm... nampaknya sa cuba buat tuk sa sndiri ja.. ish.. last2 sa tingu nda pla ok dia punya design . ikut broser yg dia guna..  screen yg dia guna.. cuma sa ikut sa punya ja.. na.. last sa buka guna computer org lain..p unya bida tu design dia.. nda nampak sumanya.. hmm.. iya la kan..
va trpaksa la sa buka tu rosario punya html.. yai.. fikir cara mo kasi masuk blik tu nnti.. adei.. mcm mna ah?..
hmm..
nnti la pkir mcm mna cara dia.. hmm.. susah jga va lau nda ok .. hehehe biarla.. hehehe
 pa org bilang semak tu ko punya blog.. va nda da pla org ckap dulu.. hehehe by the way thanks for tell me.. yea...
hmm.. For now.. God know everthing... and He can do anything.. thanks God... for that.. everthing You do.. for me.. for my family... for my friends. and everybody.. ^^ c
thanks...

dont you quit...

Shalom..

Hola.. I pray and pray.. nothing happen.. Sometime it make me to quit praying.. I don't know.. why nothing happen.. so... I pray and pray... the more I pray the more trial I get.. and it want me to quit.. But I refuse.. and it will happen again... and again.. never stop.. but like he said.. don't you quit... you keep walking... you keep trying.. there is help and happiness ahead... some blessing come .. some come late.. some didn't come to heaven.. but  for those who impress the gospel of Jesus Christ they come... It will be alright in the end. trust God and believe in good things to come...
every time I watch this video.. my tears come out falling out... It easy to cry... but didn't know why... ^^ 

radio online?

Shalom....

hola. hehhe adoi gia.. a mo buat.. kmu ada dngar pasal radio online ka?.. pena jga tu gna kan... na.. sa pun pna guna.. ada yg guna online browser dan ada jga yg gna player di computer.. hehehe ayo .. nda tau pa mo ckap tpi brother tu mo tau.. hahaha~ ok la va sa bgi tau pa yg sa tau... hehehe.. ok la va tu kan bro Simon.. hehehe ewa..
mmm,,, first ko perlu tau mcm mna ko mo dngar tu radio.. ada dua cara bah tu.. kadang2 ada web g bgi kita plugin supaya kta ble download dan main dlm winamp ka.. windows player ka.. gom player ka.. asal yg support steaming punya.. dan ada jga yg bgi supaya kita dingar di web browser ja.. so.. sa tau UUM nda bgi pelajar dia dingar tu.. sbab sa ada try dia nda bgi.. lain setting dia.. hehehe

so.. jadi cuma tu gna audio player ja la yg ble..  then lau mc tu .. ko cari dlu la plug in dia.. biasa dulu sa cuma dingar tu Sabah FM dan VFM sbab sana semennjung mana ada broadcast radio sabah.. klau tu.. ada plug in.. ko pi rtm sabah. contoh yg sa bgi tu sabah FM la.. .http://www.sabahfm.my/ pas tu ada tu button ni ----------------------->
pas tu ada la tu dia suruh ko download.. klau ble guna IE la.. lgi senang..
then plas ko download tu ko play la guna player yg tersedia install..

satu lagi.. tu radio guna browser.. buka browser dia.. pastu.. save as tu page.. complete page.. then pas download ko cari folder dia.. cari file music yg ada dlm folder trsebut... then try buka.. kadang2 ada yg ble buka tu.. biasanya nda ble.. hahahaha...
klau mcm  Ht fm ikut la pa yg dia suruh hahaha.. aish.. tpi tu internet UUM sa rasah nda support tu .. krana firewall..
hehehe.. bah try la dulu... Bro Simon... tanya lgi... sa pun nda tau pa sa taip ni ..hehehe

kalangadan..

tirak nu kakal ku orongou
ngingis nu kakal ku osorou
timpu miampai dikoyu
amu insan sumoibau
kakal pointanom
sumarabak sumaralom id tundu-undu ku..

soira kasadu id tindalanon
aratu om osindualan
oruol kam amu asangalan
ahaba.. gisom amu milo tumungag

koinggoritan ku osili kounsikahan
tihad ku osili koirakan
katangaban atalup noliputan
tindalanonku osili susuian

sabab tambalut id toningku
momolidas diti ginawoku nogonitan
ganit diti noudasan
popokito ralan sunsuion
kumaa id kalansanan

baino id sodu oku dikoyu
popotongob diti ginawoku
lumansan kopiruba kawagu
sabab lumangad oku dikoyu..

tambalutku...

Shalom...
sa nda tau lagi pa mo taip..
langadon zou.. hmmm...

update kunn

Shalom..
hola.. na nda tau pa mo taip sini ni.. ish.. hehee... iya la..
ari ni nda pi mna2 duduk2 sini.. diam2 sini.. nda pi mna2.. nda paya cari.. sa nda lari jga..sa sini ja ni... nda da tmpat sa mo tapuk.. dei.. hehe

na tu la sa cuba2 kunn add tu link sana sabalah.. ok jga la.. ada jga trtambah tpi buruk la.. ish... pas tu add la dulu tu tamanyou fm punya link.. anak sabah punya rancangan online radio.. so suport la durang k.. bilang dorang ble guna di chrome.. dan IE.. nda tau la kamurang cuba dlu.. pas tu chat tu.. ok la.. kmu ble chat trus dngan dj dia.. minta rq lagu mo pasang...
kwan2 sa jga tu sana,.. ada satu skolah sa dulu.. wass up.. hehehe
ok tu je..

thanks god for today.. Your blessing.. ^^

Thank you...

mmm...

Shalom...
hola .. hehehe.. hmmm.. why do I smile?.. ayo.. dont know nothing.. just let it be hehehe.. ^^ complete doing that link on right side of this blog..
ayo.. but it not running like I want it to be... yea I use comitbird as my default browser and it running ok with it.. but when I try it using
internet explore.. it not running well.. hahaha.. hmmm... just tri it in offline mode.. so dont know do it work online.. I hope so..
hmmm.. to night dont know what to do.. ayo.. alone it this room.. back to Tamparuli but stil alone. hahaha.. yala.. what do I do .. nothing..
iya.. hmmm.. hope tomorrow will be more meaningful ..
God thanks for tonight.. You help me a lot..
Thank you...

Thank you

iya...

Shalom...
hola... na cuba2 kunn mo buat html tuk kedua2 belah tepi... blog ni.. lain va kosong.. hehe mula2 sa mo ksih masuk gambar ja.. tpi timbul pla idea mo kc tu Rosario utk setiap ari.. hehe try guna switch.. iya.. tpi nda tau mcm mna dia pnya design... va comment pa sa mo tambah lgi.. adei.. hehe tambah berat sa punya blog ni.. hehe
pa pun.. di sini la sa testing sa punya html.. hahaha.. ok la va... walaupun nda pndai.. tpi internet bnyak membantu.. taip ja pa ko mo cari.. berjela2 dia bgi.. ada yg nda da kaitan langsng.. ok la dpt jga cari...
ni la kerja lau bosan2 ni.. hehehe
papa pun sa blum dpt g tu sa mau,,, adei... biarla nnti dpt jga tu.. hehehe
papa pun chayo.. have a nice day....

Thank you..

God for today.. thanks again.. even I do something that hurt You.. thanks..

kurang tidur.. dei..

Shalom...
hola .. hehehe .. semalam nda dpt tidur.. nda tau knapa... dei.. mcm org bingung.. then apa lgi main game la.. na tpi game pun .. nda tau mcm mana main.. kalah ja.. nda concentrate pun.. ish..  org mesej pun nda trbals.. pa la ni.. bingung .. aku bingung.. nasib bukan banganga.. ada la sikit.. hehe
 hmmm. today. lmbat masuk kerja.. nasib la budak prtikel ja..
ok jga la..
 walaupun bos marah.. tpi lmbat sikit jga dia masuk.. hehehe adei.. iya bercerita pasal bos ni.. doi.. kcian ba kwan sa ni pratikel.. dei.. nda tau la knapa tpi pada kwan2 yg kan pratikel nnti.. klau kmu pkir mo ada elaun  kmu pilh la btul2.. jgn nnti pilih2 pas tu report nda kna bagi... sdangkn dalm agreement sda kna tulis.. tau pun sabar2 ja kmu.. ikut apa yg boss suruh kmu buat.. jgn lwan cakap bos... ni va kwan sa ni.. sda kmi ckap dan bgi pndangan tpi nda jga dia mo dingar... pas tu.. masa sa sama bos jln tdi.. ada dia ckap.. supaya suruh kwan sa tu bgi surat dan minta tanda tangan .. dia mo kasih gagal.. adei... harap2 nda la... kwan ku... cpat la ko berubah... ish2... sa nda mau lau mcm tu crita dia.. kita sama sini... kita sabar ja... ya.. chayo..
hehe.. hmmm.. pa lgi.. na tdi ada chat ngan sist Yvonne.. alolo.. siok dorang.. siap jdi MC lgi nga MB tuk korean night ... ewa.. congrats ah.. hehe... tanya2 khabar la ewa.. jeles ni dorang sana... hhehee..
 na pa kan daya.. setiap yg datang akan pergi jua akhirnya.. so bgitu la lumra dunia... so. sabar je la.. nda pa... sodu id mato nga osook id ginawo ka di... hehehe kounsikou toinsanan..
for my note...

• pi sekolah2
• ambil printer
• ambil modem.. 

• thank you...

iya.... God thank you for this day... you power blessed us...

Thank you...

ayo...

Shalom...
hola.. huhuhu.. hmm.. today want to add some feature for my blog but.. as you can see.. nothing change,, hmm.. just new posting.. hehe
iya.. sa mo guna tu widget mo kunn tambah shock wave flash tapi sa rasa lambat pla nnti dia loading .. so I remove it... na..
hmmm.. today.. hehehe caya la boss.. spoting sunggu.. iya la.. hehe
makan megi kami di office.. hehehe sapa suruh tutup kadai.. hahaha~ nasib nda da boss sda..

hmm tu pesbuk status.. "Simbar Busul".. adei sa pikir ada org tau... hehe.. nampaknya cuma di rumah ja dorang pakai tu.. hehehe maksudnya ialah.. ko bercakap sendiri.. contoh keadaan.. ko tanya sesuatu.. pas tu ko jawab sendiri.. tu la dia bilang Pxxxat ko yg menjawab.. hahahahaha~

ayo. miss NUCS lo.. tonight every Thursday.. at 2030 there have catholic student gathering... huhuu.. miss that moment with them.. singing... praying... worshiping.. sharing,, and the best moment is.. I can play guitar.. to worship God.. ewa... (emo kunn) cess.. hehehe.. anyway be bless always NUSCsan...

Dear God thanks for the blessing from You today.. ^^

Thank you...

love You...

I love you but...

No need to talk... 

one day of...

Shalom
Hola... hehehe how are you today?.. everthing is fine for you?.. plan2 kita mnghadapi setiap dugaan hidup.. na bagi rakan yg berpuasa.. selamat berpuasa ya... ^^
today no thing to write down.. just an ordinary day.. mmm.. tu pasal puasa ja la.. nda da kedai bukan.. skit kedai buka.. hehehe... nda pa.. last2 terikut jga berpuasa.. nda mkn..doi mcm nda biasa... iya lakan..
hmmm,, bit boring today... na.. ada bos.. takut jga di office... takut kedapatan buka web yg nda da kaitan.. pura2 la sibuk.. hehehe cewa.. hmmmm.. walaupun cuma ratikum ja ok ja pun.. mcm berkerja sda.. haha suasana dia.. dei..
dei.. yesterday... I post "koinggoritan popokito koposion" for my facebook status.. na bilang c Bebert.. I dont understand.. na.. Nak ertinya... "Hardness show Life" .. even me cant expalin it actually.. hehehe
mmm.. nda da la mo ckap.. 
iya.. for my blog.. didnt know how to make floating link.. that stick with browser .e.vent you scroll down the page.. hahaha.. na perlu cari tu cm mna mo buat... ish2.. yg kmarin sa buat nda jadi... dei.. cuba2 kunn.. sana2 va tu link... 
na haha... mo cari crita last tu sinetron benci bilang cinta. .tpi nda dpt... sa mo tingu last dia.. mana tau siok mo tingu.. walaupun kurang jga sa tingu .. hehehe
mmm.. pa lgi... mo mencari template blogger.. mo buat kajian kunn.. hahaha lau pandai la.. cewa... 
good luck for you...
mmm... Thanks God... for this day,,, You always there even sometime I forgot You.. but You never be.. 

Thank you ...

panat ka sa ni?

Shalom.... 
Hola... apa khabr semua?... hope it's always ok.. mmm.. if not.. I hope that you are stronger than enough to face it.. then everything goes right... yea don't worry.. He always there.. for us.. even we ignore Him.. but for now... He always there.. waiting for us to turn to Him.. ^___^.. 
 ayo.. not to well today.. a bit tired.. hehehehe.. but I enjoy it.. before this.. gone to TM building to pasang wireless wiring... ayo.. panat jga la.. turun naik bangunan lima tingkat.. I dont know.. but I enjoy it.. smlam kurang tidur.. (kunn) siapa suruh.. then today ada boss di office.. na.. nasib ada mo buat di luar.. nda jga trjumpa boss.. mcm la boss tu garang .. sampai nda mo jumpa dia.. wasei.. (terbatuk-batuk kunn kli boss tu skrang) hehe
hmmm.. what did I do three years blajar di UUM.. samapi perkara senang pun lupa.. doi ada ka sa lupa susunan tu RJ45 puya warna.. hmmm... ni va susunan dia..

• White orange
• orange
• white green
• blue
• white blue
• green
• white brown
• brown

hehehe.. senang ja pun.. tukar2 ja.. ish..punya malu ni pun nda tau.. na lain kli jgn ko silap@lupa.. hehehe siap tulis di buku 555 lagi.. yai.. utk nnti kn..
ewa.. na pas tu jln kaki balik office.. ewa.. limpas Gereja secret Heart.. jaln pi Sadong Jaya.. dengan tanga di tangan.. nasib ringa ja.. but hot bah skarang.. ceh.. pa bilang staff sini tu sama2 sa jalan... knapa pla skrang ni.. org mo puasa dia ja sibuk2 mo kemarau.. iya bah pla .. mcm mula sda blik kemarau.. na kcian va org yg mo puasa.. mcm mana dorang mo tahan klau kering time puasa.. na sabar2 je la ya.. jgn batal.. semua dugaan.. good luck pada semua.. ^^ 
 sampai office.. na trus pi mkn.. pkul tiga setengah baru ambil lunch.. hehehe nda pa rasa nda lapar pla...
hmmm.. petang tu.. na.. ambil kesempatan guna alatan yg office.. hahaha.. alat utk urut2 kaki.. hahah siok.. 
wasei... pas tu nda pla sedar tertidur.. hmmm... nda pa .. panat kli knn ni. ish..
ayo.. tdi sempat kmi pi wisma Muis.. na black out oh sana.. wasei.. nda pla tau.. boleh2 nya sa trjumpa dorang c Zul kici san.. dorang pun pratikum jga va.. di jabatan Zakat dia bilang.. ish.. ni lagi yg sa nda suka.. va.. pertanyaan tu.. berapa elaun kamu dapt?.. hmm. susah ati sa mo jwab oh.. hahaha~
Sda la klau tmpat kmi.. sudah ada perjanjian elaun blum tntu kna bgi.. na sa ambil jga.. hehe cess.. ble ka klau nda paya tanya pasal tu? ... yala va sja.. senyum ja la.. hmmm begitu la va... stakat ni.. nda pa la.. sa sda dpt pengalaman di sini.. dan mereka sudi mengambil kmi sebagar pelajar pratikum di tmpat mereka.. na buat la pa dorang sruh... then elaun tu blakang kira va klau sa..  hehehe
ni va satu lagi ni.. adoi.. sa punya rakan pelajr yg sama2 sa pratikum.. ble2 lagi dia lambat2 datang pi office.. pas tu kna tegur.. boleh2 dia ckap.. ble ka company ni bayar bagi sa elaun... aish.. kecian tu krani kmi.. sa trs dia dia bilang..hmmm.. org sda bagus2 va ckap... never mind friend.. we already do what we must do.. and you are the one who can do it .. we just support you.. 
hmm... what else... iya..
 sa mo tambah lagi option di blog sa.. sa mo tu floating link.. hahaha.. sa nda mo static ja di atas.. sa mo lau kita scroll down tu link pun ikut sama... hehe
that all..  Thanks god for today... I got a happy day.. ^^

Thank you.. 

blog adding function..

Shalom

Hola..... hmmm.. pandai2 mo ubah css org.. tpi last2 nda tau jga.. hehehe.. nda pa ok jga va ada jga sa trtambah tu link sana atas.. supaya nda pya susah mo cari@taip tu link into new tab.. because I set it to open in new tab kunn.. then try buka guna internet explore...sbab sa edit guna ni cometBird... BIRD kunn gitu.. bkan tu FOX..  sdangkan sama ja pun.. hehehe.. then try the link in there.. hahaha dia pop up into new windows.. cess.. kecewa kunn sa... how come ah?.. then try tingu2 setting tu Internet explore.. na tau ada jga va mo tukar sana.. then try again.. yes.. it open in new tab... 

hahaha~ kcian... baru tu yg dia tau... hmm... maybe but it more than nothing kan.. biarla... like two in one... in editing or adding html into my blog.. at the same time learning... sda blajra va jga tpi.. berkarat sda otak.. lupa.. 

tu la.. makan semut sja.. 

wasei.... tapi sa tu yg sa nda puas ati  tu css tuk video.. adaka sa post video.. sa embed kunn.. then that give me half of that video only...  sbab tu sa punya css nda set tu bnda.. na kciwa sa... pening2 sda mo tingu tu HTML dia.. benci sa tingu tu video sparuh ja bkan full pun... hahaha~ jeles sama c Bebert punya blog.. full screen kunn dia punya video... nnti la sa tanya pa template yg dia guna.. (ble ka tu?).. aish... sa nda puas ati lau nda dpt.. (kunn) bisuk2 lupa sda kunn tu mo buat.. hehehe

va yg penting ada sda tu link pesbuk.. manga.. youtube.. then tu email la pnting sama c Bebert dan NUCS punya blog.. ok la va... snang ja la click sja.. hmm

mula2 mo guna yg kna bagi sana add gajet tpi nda siok.. dia guna turun bawa list.. ble tukar jga tpi mo kunn tulis sndiri.. haha..
pas tu tukar tu text bergerak.. mo try switch punya function kunn.. mo tingu la bisuk pa kunn text yg dia bgi.. kunn mo tukarr tiap ari.. yala tu.. btul ka tu.. tingu la bisuk... 

anyway... have a good life.. 

thanks God for today... ayo.. tringat pla mo pi mass ari ni .. sperti setiap kli dan selalu... melayani... 

tpi apakan daya.. kerjaya bkan stakat di sana ja... so hidup perlu di teruskan... 

walau dimana saja berada.. ( walaupun kadang2 trfikir jga rasa bosan untuk hidup)... anyway...

Thank you.... 

Alone in the night…

Shalom….

It’s dark… I can’t see light there..in my room… it’s dark…

the lamp is on… it’s still dark… I on my laptop… but still I can’t see the light… it’s dark…

silent… yes it quiet night… even there is car at road passing by… even it’s raining… even I play music there in my laptop… but again it’s silent…a quiet night… no sound… it’s quiet…

empty… yea it’s empty again… even this room are small… full off stuff… my stuff… but it’s still empty… yea empty…

there is something missing…

hmmm… I am sleepy…

thanks God for this day…

I don't want to talk about it anymore.....

 Shalom...
I been thinking.. can I forget it?..  I've been stupid... pretending that I am not guilty...
 I want to stop it.. and don't want to talk it anymore...  thank you...

I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
and the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're just a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke this ol' heart.

If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
My heart, whoa, heart.

take care...  

I did It my way...

Shalom
hola... hmmm.. hehehe (senyum sndiri).. doi.. hehehe
 I did it my way.. that the last song that we sing together at C-mart k-box.. uwa... we MB,YB and Brun there,,, how is it .. hehehe... good for me.. just have fun with them before I leave.. hehehe 
lawak .. nyanyi dgn penuh semangat.. menghayati btul kunn.. hehehe ewa... caya la kmurang bro... hehe
nnti lain kli kita pi nyanyi lagi ah .. hehe klau c YB suka tu lagu2 rock kapak dulu.. hehehe.. yg vesi jiwang2.. hahaha ( jgn marah).. lau MB pla suka lgu yg .. lama2 jga la ..tpi lebih pada yg genre apa tu sa pun nda ingat.. yai.. lau C brun pla.. jgn la .. dia suka lagu yg tarik2.. terutama CD... hehehe doi teringat suma tu.. heheh
senyum ja ko ah...  jgn ko buat papa.. hehehe ewa.. 
nda tau pla sa mo crita pa sini.. cuma sa ingat ja.. juz remember it.. n dont know how to explain it... ok ..
la.. lalalala~ 

what is this mean to be?.

Shalom...
hola... what happen to me today?.. like I gonna cry.. what is this feeling?...  something in my heart... something hurt... I want to laugh but ... my lips seem not agree with me... both my eyes and lips... don't agree with what i want to do... My feeling ... take all of it... hahaha...
 adoi... I think I am strong to face this.. huhuhuhu.. but.. now what?.. seem not ..

those pictures.. those video... those music we sing together are hunting me..  take all my feeling .. make it sad...
uwa... be strong...  be strong... hahahha

A new month and day...

Shalom..
Hola.... happy friendship's day... friends..
with a new month and day... nothing happen.. maybe there is but I didn't care.. hehe ya... 
got text from my friends.. and I send it back to them... yea.. thank for this friendship's day... coz for this day I have a reason to text my friends...  
its weird coz.. I scare to text my friend.. hehehe~  iya.. if nothing important I want to ask.. I scare to send text.. hehe.. dont know why.. juz dont want to disturb them .. yea.. maybe.. sometime like that.. so I prefer not to text unless there text me first... 
 so.. on that day .. got reason to text them.. then.. at the same time .. ble jga tanya kabar... 
hmm... 
feel want to play guitar and sing... together to sing...
 want to sing Hossana.. thank to bro Brun.. for this song ... how sweet it...
but... no guitar to play...hmmm
then no friends beside me to sing with... like always...  miss to play guitar for you... 
perhaps I am not a good guitarist.. but I like to play it.. 
that the way can feel it.. hehehe ... the way to praise..^____^ 
any way thank for that memory... sweet memory in my head...