kurang tidur.. dei..

Shalom...
hola .. hehehe .. semalam nda dpt tidur.. nda tau knapa... dei.. mcm org bingung.. then apa lgi main game la.. na tpi game pun .. nda tau mcm mana main.. kalah ja.. nda concentrate pun.. ish..  org mesej pun nda trbals.. pa la ni.. bingung .. aku bingung.. nasib bukan banganga.. ada la sikit.. hehe
 hmmm. today. lmbat masuk kerja.. nasib la budak prtikel ja..
ok jga la..
 walaupun bos marah.. tpi lmbat sikit jga dia masuk.. hehehe adei.. iya bercerita pasal bos ni.. doi.. kcian ba kwan sa ni pratikel.. dei.. nda tau la knapa tpi pada kwan2 yg kan pratikel nnti.. klau kmu pkir mo ada elaun  kmu pilh la btul2.. jgn nnti pilih2 pas tu report nda kna bagi... sdangkn dalm agreement sda kna tulis.. tau pun sabar2 ja kmu.. ikut apa yg boss suruh kmu buat.. jgn lwan cakap bos... ni va kwan sa ni.. sda kmi ckap dan bgi pndangan tpi nda jga dia mo dingar... pas tu.. masa sa sama bos jln tdi.. ada dia ckap.. supaya suruh kwan sa tu bgi surat dan minta tanda tangan .. dia mo kasih gagal.. adei... harap2 nda la... kwan ku... cpat la ko berubah... ish2... sa nda mau lau mcm tu crita dia.. kita sama sini... kita sabar ja... ya.. chayo..
hehe.. hmmm.. pa lgi.. na tdi ada chat ngan sist Yvonne.. alolo.. siok dorang.. siap jdi MC lgi nga MB tuk korean night ... ewa.. congrats ah.. hehe... tanya2 khabar la ewa.. jeles ni dorang sana... hhehee..
 na pa kan daya.. setiap yg datang akan pergi jua akhirnya.. so bgitu la lumra dunia... so. sabar je la.. nda pa... sodu id mato nga osook id ginawo ka di... hehehe kounsikou toinsanan..
for my note...

• pi sekolah2
• ambil printer
• ambil modem.. 

• thank you...

iya.... God thank you for this day... you power blessed us...

Thank you...

ayo...

Shalom...
hola.. huhuhu.. hmm.. today want to add some feature for my blog but.. as you can see.. nothing change,, hmm.. just new posting.. hehe
iya.. sa mo guna tu widget mo kunn tambah shock wave flash tapi sa rasa lambat pla nnti dia loading .. so I remove it... na..
hmmm.. today.. hehehe caya la boss.. spoting sunggu.. iya la.. hehe
makan megi kami di office.. hehehe sapa suruh tutup kadai.. hahaha~ nasib nda da boss sda..

hmm tu pesbuk status.. "Simbar Busul".. adei sa pikir ada org tau... hehe.. nampaknya cuma di rumah ja dorang pakai tu.. hehehe maksudnya ialah.. ko bercakap sendiri.. contoh keadaan.. ko tanya sesuatu.. pas tu ko jawab sendiri.. tu la dia bilang Pxxxat ko yg menjawab.. hahahahaha~

ayo. miss NUCS lo.. tonight every Thursday.. at 2030 there have catholic student gathering... huhuu.. miss that moment with them.. singing... praying... worshiping.. sharing,, and the best moment is.. I can play guitar.. to worship God.. ewa... (emo kunn) cess.. hehehe.. anyway be bless always NUSCsan...

Dear God thanks for the blessing from You today.. ^^

Thank you...

love You...

I love you but...

No need to talk... 

one day of...

Shalom
Hola... hehehe how are you today?.. everthing is fine for you?.. plan2 kita mnghadapi setiap dugaan hidup.. na bagi rakan yg berpuasa.. selamat berpuasa ya... ^^
today no thing to write down.. just an ordinary day.. mmm.. tu pasal puasa ja la.. nda da kedai bukan.. skit kedai buka.. hehehe... nda pa.. last2 terikut jga berpuasa.. nda mkn..doi mcm nda biasa... iya lakan..
hmmm,, bit boring today... na.. ada bos.. takut jga di office... takut kedapatan buka web yg nda da kaitan.. pura2 la sibuk.. hehehe cewa.. hmmmm.. walaupun cuma ratikum ja ok ja pun.. mcm berkerja sda.. haha suasana dia.. dei..
dei.. yesterday... I post "koinggoritan popokito koposion" for my facebook status.. na bilang c Bebert.. I dont understand.. na.. Nak ertinya... "Hardness show Life" .. even me cant expalin it actually.. hehehe
mmm.. nda da la mo ckap.. 
iya.. for my blog.. didnt know how to make floating link.. that stick with browser .e.vent you scroll down the page.. hahaha.. na perlu cari tu cm mna mo buat... ish2.. yg kmarin sa buat nda jadi... dei.. cuba2 kunn.. sana2 va tu link... 
na haha... mo cari crita last tu sinetron benci bilang cinta. .tpi nda dpt... sa mo tingu last dia.. mana tau siok mo tingu.. walaupun kurang jga sa tingu .. hehehe
mmm.. pa lgi... mo mencari template blogger.. mo buat kajian kunn.. hahaha lau pandai la.. cewa... 
good luck for you...
mmm... Thanks God... for this day,,, You always there even sometime I forgot You.. but You never be.. 

Thank you ...

panat ka sa ni?

Shalom.... 
Hola... apa khabr semua?... hope it's always ok.. mmm.. if not.. I hope that you are stronger than enough to face it.. then everything goes right... yea don't worry.. He always there.. for us.. even we ignore Him.. but for now... He always there.. waiting for us to turn to Him.. ^___^.. 
 ayo.. not to well today.. a bit tired.. hehehehe.. but I enjoy it.. before this.. gone to TM building to pasang wireless wiring... ayo.. panat jga la.. turun naik bangunan lima tingkat.. I dont know.. but I enjoy it.. smlam kurang tidur.. (kunn) siapa suruh.. then today ada boss di office.. na.. nasib ada mo buat di luar.. nda jga trjumpa boss.. mcm la boss tu garang .. sampai nda mo jumpa dia.. wasei.. (terbatuk-batuk kunn kli boss tu skrang) hehe
hmmm.. what did I do three years blajar di UUM.. samapi perkara senang pun lupa.. doi ada ka sa lupa susunan tu RJ45 puya warna.. hmmm... ni va susunan dia..

• White orange
• orange
• white green
• blue
• white blue
• green
• white brown
• brown

hehehe.. senang ja pun.. tukar2 ja.. ish..punya malu ni pun nda tau.. na lain kli jgn ko silap@lupa.. hehehe siap tulis di buku 555 lagi.. yai.. utk nnti kn..
ewa.. na pas tu jln kaki balik office.. ewa.. limpas Gereja secret Heart.. jaln pi Sadong Jaya.. dengan tanga di tangan.. nasib ringa ja.. but hot bah skarang.. ceh.. pa bilang staff sini tu sama2 sa jalan... knapa pla skrang ni.. org mo puasa dia ja sibuk2 mo kemarau.. iya bah pla .. mcm mula sda blik kemarau.. na kcian va org yg mo puasa.. mcm mana dorang mo tahan klau kering time puasa.. na sabar2 je la ya.. jgn batal.. semua dugaan.. good luck pada semua.. ^^ 
 sampai office.. na trus pi mkn.. pkul tiga setengah baru ambil lunch.. hehehe nda pa rasa nda lapar pla...
hmmm.. petang tu.. na.. ambil kesempatan guna alatan yg office.. hahaha.. alat utk urut2 kaki.. hahah siok.. 
wasei... pas tu nda pla sedar tertidur.. hmmm... nda pa .. panat kli knn ni. ish..
ayo.. tdi sempat kmi pi wisma Muis.. na black out oh sana.. wasei.. nda pla tau.. boleh2 nya sa trjumpa dorang c Zul kici san.. dorang pun pratikum jga va.. di jabatan Zakat dia bilang.. ish.. ni lagi yg sa nda suka.. va.. pertanyaan tu.. berapa elaun kamu dapt?.. hmm. susah ati sa mo jwab oh.. hahaha~
Sda la klau tmpat kmi.. sudah ada perjanjian elaun blum tntu kna bgi.. na sa ambil jga.. hehe cess.. ble ka klau nda paya tanya pasal tu? ... yala va sja.. senyum ja la.. hmmm begitu la va... stakat ni.. nda pa la.. sa sda dpt pengalaman di sini.. dan mereka sudi mengambil kmi sebagar pelajar pratikum di tmpat mereka.. na buat la pa dorang sruh... then elaun tu blakang kira va klau sa..  hehehe
ni va satu lagi ni.. adoi.. sa punya rakan pelajr yg sama2 sa pratikum.. ble2 lagi dia lambat2 datang pi office.. pas tu kna tegur.. boleh2 dia ckap.. ble ka company ni bayar bagi sa elaun... aish.. kecian tu krani kmi.. sa trs dia dia bilang..hmmm.. org sda bagus2 va ckap... never mind friend.. we already do what we must do.. and you are the one who can do it .. we just support you.. 
hmm... what else... iya..
 sa mo tambah lagi option di blog sa.. sa mo tu floating link.. hahaha.. sa nda mo static ja di atas.. sa mo lau kita scroll down tu link pun ikut sama... hehe
that all..  Thanks god for today... I got a happy day.. ^^

Thank you.. 

blog adding function..

Shalom

Hola..... hmmm.. pandai2 mo ubah css org.. tpi last2 nda tau jga.. hehehe.. nda pa ok jga va ada jga sa trtambah tu link sana atas.. supaya nda pya susah mo cari@taip tu link into new tab.. because I set it to open in new tab kunn.. then try buka guna internet explore...sbab sa edit guna ni cometBird... BIRD kunn gitu.. bkan tu FOX..  sdangkan sama ja pun.. hehehe.. then try the link in there.. hahaha dia pop up into new windows.. cess.. kecewa kunn sa... how come ah?.. then try tingu2 setting tu Internet explore.. na tau ada jga va mo tukar sana.. then try again.. yes.. it open in new tab... 

hahaha~ kcian... baru tu yg dia tau... hmm... maybe but it more than nothing kan.. biarla... like two in one... in editing or adding html into my blog.. at the same time learning... sda blajra va jga tpi.. berkarat sda otak.. lupa.. 

tu la.. makan semut sja.. 

wasei.... tapi sa tu yg sa nda puas ati  tu css tuk video.. adaka sa post video.. sa embed kunn.. then that give me half of that video only...  sbab tu sa punya css nda set tu bnda.. na kciwa sa... pening2 sda mo tingu tu HTML dia.. benci sa tingu tu video sparuh ja bkan full pun... hahaha~ jeles sama c Bebert punya blog.. full screen kunn dia punya video... nnti la sa tanya pa template yg dia guna.. (ble ka tu?).. aish... sa nda puas ati lau nda dpt.. (kunn) bisuk2 lupa sda kunn tu mo buat.. hehehe

va yg penting ada sda tu link pesbuk.. manga.. youtube.. then tu email la pnting sama c Bebert dan NUCS punya blog.. ok la va... snang ja la click sja.. hmm

mula2 mo guna yg kna bagi sana add gajet tpi nda siok.. dia guna turun bawa list.. ble tukar jga tpi mo kunn tulis sndiri.. haha..
pas tu tukar tu text bergerak.. mo try switch punya function kunn.. mo tingu la bisuk pa kunn text yg dia bgi.. kunn mo tukarr tiap ari.. yala tu.. btul ka tu.. tingu la bisuk... 

anyway... have a good life.. 

thanks God for today... ayo.. tringat pla mo pi mass ari ni .. sperti setiap kli dan selalu... melayani... 

tpi apakan daya.. kerjaya bkan stakat di sana ja... so hidup perlu di teruskan... 

walau dimana saja berada.. ( walaupun kadang2 trfikir jga rasa bosan untuk hidup)... anyway...

Thank you.... 

Alone in the night…

Shalom….

It’s dark… I can’t see light there..in my room… it’s dark…

the lamp is on… it’s still dark… I on my laptop… but still I can’t see the light… it’s dark…

silent… yes it quiet night… even there is car at road passing by… even it’s raining… even I play music there in my laptop… but again it’s silent…a quiet night… no sound… it’s quiet…

empty… yea it’s empty again… even this room are small… full off stuff… my stuff… but it’s still empty… yea empty…

there is something missing…

hmmm… I am sleepy…

thanks God for this day…

I don't want to talk about it anymore.....

 Shalom...
I been thinking.. can I forget it?..  I've been stupid... pretending that I am not guilty...
 I want to stop it.. and don't want to talk it anymore...  thank you...

I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
and the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're just a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke this ol' heart.

If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
My heart, whoa, heart.

take care...  

I did It my way...

Shalom
hola... hmmm.. hehehe (senyum sndiri).. doi.. hehehe
 I did it my way.. that the last song that we sing together at C-mart k-box.. uwa... we MB,YB and Brun there,,, how is it .. hehehe... good for me.. just have fun with them before I leave.. hehehe 
lawak .. nyanyi dgn penuh semangat.. menghayati btul kunn.. hehehe ewa... caya la kmurang bro... hehe
nnti lain kli kita pi nyanyi lagi ah .. hehe klau c YB suka tu lagu2 rock kapak dulu.. hehehe.. yg vesi jiwang2.. hahaha ( jgn marah).. lau MB pla suka lgu yg .. lama2 jga la ..tpi lebih pada yg genre apa tu sa pun nda ingat.. yai.. lau C brun pla.. jgn la .. dia suka lagu yg tarik2.. terutama CD... hehehe doi teringat suma tu.. heheh
senyum ja ko ah...  jgn ko buat papa.. hehehe ewa.. 
nda tau pla sa mo crita pa sini.. cuma sa ingat ja.. juz remember it.. n dont know how to explain it... ok ..
la.. lalalala~ 

what is this mean to be?.

Shalom...
hola... what happen to me today?.. like I gonna cry.. what is this feeling?...  something in my heart... something hurt... I want to laugh but ... my lips seem not agree with me... both my eyes and lips... don't agree with what i want to do... My feeling ... take all of it... hahaha...
 adoi... I think I am strong to face this.. huhuhuhu.. but.. now what?.. seem not ..

those pictures.. those video... those music we sing together are hunting me..  take all my feeling .. make it sad...
uwa... be strong...  be strong... hahahha

A new month and day...

Shalom..
Hola.... happy friendship's day... friends..
with a new month and day... nothing happen.. maybe there is but I didn't care.. hehe ya... 
got text from my friends.. and I send it back to them... yea.. thank for this friendship's day... coz for this day I have a reason to text my friends...  
its weird coz.. I scare to text my friend.. hehehe~  iya.. if nothing important I want to ask.. I scare to send text.. hehe.. dont know why.. juz dont want to disturb them .. yea.. maybe.. sometime like that.. so I prefer not to text unless there text me first... 
 so.. on that day .. got reason to text them.. then.. at the same time .. ble jga tanya kabar... 
hmm... 
feel want to play guitar and sing... together to sing...
 want to sing Hossana.. thank to bro Brun.. for this song ... how sweet it...
but... no guitar to play...hmmm
then no friends beside me to sing with... like always...  miss to play guitar for you... 
perhaps I am not a good guitarist.. but I like to play it.. 
that the way can feel it.. hehehe ... the way to praise..^____^ 
any way thank for that memory... sweet memory in my head...  

Let it be...

Shalom... 
Hola .... walaupun sa nda tau apa mo taip.. taip ja la...  hmm... today nothing we do... just a bit kemaskini di system... then na .. lambt kunn dia punya sistem...  any way.. ok jga kli rasa ni.. tpi rasa mcm kosong ja.. huhuhu.. Dont know why.. hmmm... boring. ada jga... penat ada jga... rindu pun ada jga.. ayo...  what ever.. life must go on .. that what I have told to my friends... and for me also.. but seem I am the one who not... like I admit to the end.. hehehe... 
world are too complicated to understand... people there and there... hard to predict what is it.. hahahaha...( poor English)... 
hmmm... that I dont want to complain... everyone have their right to chose.. so dont blame God.. heheh
 kuat pla sa merapuh ni... adoi...   
anyway thank to you my friends... especially who contact me.. ^^ 

May God you always..

hmm..

Shalom

hi.. How are you fella?.. hmmmm..what wrong I dont know... I can't explain it... seem I start to regret.. ^^.. hmmm.. serve you right... koto..
who order you to do that?.. its you.. you.. and none of the its you alone..
ok... stop... and stop.. the story end here.. time is over now..
 and begin a new day...  learn from yesterday.. and never do it again... 
maybe my mistake for the first place... like I don't care.. hmmm..
 yesterday I call both MB and YB.. hehehe.. miss them.. other ask about what just happen hehe..
 doi...both of you ah... hehe... I know you well.. some is serious with their job.. and other buat slumber ja.. hehehe.. just another way to be more mature.. hahahaha~

then another thing.. yai.. what happen... a bit shock bout them lo...  pikir gaduh2.. hehehe. then tau2 just a joke.. cess.. what ever la.. keep it tight la k... NUCS family...
hmmm.... feeling lonely pla di sni ni.. ok la.. bye..

that the answer...

Shalom... 
hi everyone.. huhuhuh.. dont know what to say here... hmmm..
but thank for visiting my blog.. nothing here ... hehehe.. wonder who is in Negeri Sembilan...  
thanks for visit ya.. :) 
hmmm.. no.. I dont know what else to say.. that me... why do I did this thing?..  ayo..
yea.. realizing that silent not a good option so I ask... then the answer just like what I expected..  Yes..
 hehehe.. yea i agree.. that my fault.. and even me if someone do that to me.. there is a reason for me to keep mad to that person.. 
anyway thank for answering my question... I will never ask it again.. (hopefully).. that me.. How cruel I am.. 
what curse me?.. 
why do I can't be more responsible for that?... 
why I can't be serious with that thing?.
do I can't...?
what ever.. I never want this... 
hmmm.... just let it be...

and I am not...

Shalom..

 I want to ask you my friends and my blog reader... thanks for reading although I dont know what I am typing here. Do you agree if I say ..

"to be a brother or sister he or she must be great and perfect"...

 I dont know why I am saying this.. for my friends who know me...

Do I act like a real brother for you?... 

hmmmm...

sometimes... even evertime I think I am not congruent to be call as a big brother for my friends... yes I am not... How can I called as brother with all I have done?... what I have done for my brother and sister… How I’m not ashame to be called as a brother even in my family… I am not much talk to my brother and sister… membisu seribu bahasa,… to my big brother.. how ?.. I didn’t have a good talk to him.. to my sisters.. what?.. just an important thing .. and after that…. Silent…  to my three young brothers.. why I can’t do more talk with all of you?...  whay ?.. why I can’t talk more easily to all of you… yes maybe there is a time that we talk much… but why not all the time? I did not know how to…

to my friends,,, I do care for you… do as a brother…  and I really mean it.. but.. In deep of my heart… I am ashamed.. of what I am doing… like I just pretending to be a brother…

I am lie to myself… lie to my friends… how can I be you brother even I can be a good brothers for my family members…

How shame I am… you call me brother… you call me bro..  I call you sist… I call you sister… I call you bro.. I call you brother…. Proud to be call as a brother…   But do I qualify to be a brother for you?...

Sometimes means everytime… I can’t help my brother and sister…. How shame I am?...  sometime I did not want to understand them.. what I am?...  I just think of myself… even can’t think about other heart… and feeling.. menyakitkan hati mereka adalah.. hurt their feeling…. What I am?...

How I deserve to be call as brother.. without doing the right thing what a BROTHER must do.. to their sisters and brothers?... How cant I not shame ?..

How cant I deserve to be call as you brother.. and I call you sister if I hurt you feeling.. ?..  I cant keep you safe.. I cant take care of you.. even I call myself as a brother for you… I give you poison…

What I am?

Then I realize …  I am not deserve to be your brother… I am not a good and perfect brother… I am not even qualified to be call as a brother at  all… thanks to call be as your brother…  THANKS…