my tears come down..

Shalom


huhuhuhuhu... thanks for all NUCS exco and all who yang terlibat secara langsung atau tidak langsung.. for this NUCS family day celebration..
hahaha.. yea berjaga sehingga waktu pagi bukanla sesuatu yg mustahil sekiranya di  bilik tpi klau dlm melakukan kerja... memasak and all thing... hadiah.. decoration... and prepare for Mass.. hehehe

yea dont know what to say...
hehehe.. that day I got title " King of NUCS".. wa.. thanks for everyone yea... brother.. I dont ever thingking that  what I have done (tolong tingu ja dorang buat) .. than I get it.. thank to fel.. you have done a good job...

then I can describe what is happen that day..
 I feel happy.. with all of you..senyum2... ketawa sama2.. then time for bersalam2an.. then.. what a shame.. something push my tears to come down.. ayo.. with smile... dan ketawa.. laju pla dia mengalir.. aish..

dont know what exactly ... hahaha.. what I know is.. the song... huhuhuhu.. the song of Nikita... wa... until now ... I did not want to listen it for a while.. adess..
memalukan... hmm... nda apa la... yg penting itu la saya...that what I am to be as a man... (betul ka lelaki mcm tu?).. dont know la...
nda tau pa sa rasa mcm tu.. rasa sedih ada.. terharu ada... gembira ada... malu ada... adess...  apa la sa ni..
I suppose not to cry .. I already promise to my self that I will not cry on that day... and what happen?.. hmm... bertuah la kmu nampak sa ... hehehe... cpat pla sa trsentuh ngan bnda mcm ni..

nda apa la..
 thanks God for this beautiful tears... because.. there is some people cant cry... event setitik air mata...
thanks to all of you....

if I say,I love you? what do it mean to be?

Shalom..

ayo.. nothing to say about this topic.. but just want to share what Im thikng about it.. hehehe.. ayo.. there have been so long time for me to write down here ayo.. huhuhuh.. so .. this topic?. what I suppose to write for this? hyahaha dont know what.. hehe... so next time la...

Selalu mencintai-Mu..

Shalom..

In the name of Christ... Thanks God for all You have done for me in my everyday life...

Pada minggu yang lalu... semasa melayari internet@youtube dalam mencari maklumat berkaitan dengan assignment.. dan di situ jemari tangan ini tanpa kawalan dan perasaan untuk melakukannya menaip "selalu mincintaimu".
beberapa saat.. ruang carian memberikan apa yg dicari.. tanpa ingin mengetahui apaka yanga ada dalamnya.. maka tangan sibuk bermain dengan tetikus dan menekan butang download.. di sana la video ini hadir..

apa yang ku inginkan adalah sebuah lagu yang damai.. dan ini la yg kucari.. tanpa menyebut sepatah pun perkataan Tuhan Yesus Kristus di dalamnya.. namun iya sudah boleh dimengertikan..
dan inilah lirik lagunya... sungguh indah olahan kata2nya.. begitu indah dan berkuasanya Tuhan kita... mencipta kita dengan begitu indah sekali.. dan terima kasih kepada sist Joyshi.. nampaknya memang benar lagu ini indah bagi semua.. terima kasih dengan lirik yang sist. berikan.. ^^

Selalu Mencintai-Mu

Jason dan Nehemia (sentuh hatiku)

Sejak pertama bertemu dengan-Mu

ada rasa getaran cinta

yang kau pancarkan dari aura wajah-Mu

ku jatuh cinta pada diri-Mu

reff:

selalu mencintai-Mu

dalam hatiku selamanya

tiada cinta yang lain

hanya kau satu

Kaulah cintaku(Engkaulah cintaku)

bridge:

biarlah cinta itu ada dalam hati kita

untuk selamanya(sampai selamanya)

biarlah cinta itu ada dalam hati kita 

untuk selamanya.

kali pertama mendengar ungkapan bait-bait lagu ini, kurasa dalam alam percintaan.. hehe.. namun bila dihayati sepenuhnya.. sangkaan jauh meleset sama sekali.. betapa indahnya lagu ini.. betapa indahnya memuji dan memuliakan-Nya.. yang selalu mencitai.. walau dimanapun ku berada.. walau bagaimana pun aku.. walauapapun yang ku lakukan.. 

Ku ingin mencintai-Mu selamanya.. ajari aku agar dapat memenuhi kehendak-Mu.. ^^.

If I cry, do this thing funny for you?

Shalom..

hehehe... funny to ask this question. But its true thing.. and boys or man must know and ask this..( beside if you did not cry even once) hehe.. I don't think so.. Everyone may cry... there is something will break you ego..believe me.. even me hahaha..don't want to hide it.. because they will know it some day..

talk about this, I ask this on facebook.. then almost say.. no.. but dont know if this thing happen in front of you what do you think you will do?.. do you laugh?.. or you will cry with him?.. hehehe dont know right?

hehehe.. anyway.. it will depend on what make him cry.. I agree with my friends.. it will depend on what do he crying for..

If that person(man) cry just for a small thing.. like what sist Anne say.. " klau menangis utk perkara remeh,".. then she will say it as funny thing.. hehehe yea.. Anne.. you are funny too..

then.. how about.. man who are touched with something?.. like value of life.. friendship.. or something that so meaningful?.. what do you say?.. or that is just a "REMEH" thing?.. although I am also will cry@my tears will fall down.. hehehe...
but not in front of you la.. yea its true.. hehe.. when I watch.. film that full of love story..

(but not the jiwang2 ok.. not interest in love story..) 

dont know why.. but that not the part that I like for.. hehehe
but love story that I mention is.. from.. family story.. friendship story.. faith in God.. and other...

I like the way of they play the story.. hehe.. even I am not cry.. but my tears will drop down.. and I will say,,

how sweet if my life like that..

or 

How sweet if I can do like that 

hehehe.. because there is some story make us think and chose... sometime its hard to make decision.. hehehe..
Dont know why... My tears fall down with that some sort of story.. hehehe . but I think that was gift from God.. that what I know..for sure ..
Thanks GOD
hehehe.. If you cry I will cry with you.. hehehe.. (not crying loud) but just drop my tears hehehe.. sedih tengok kmu menangis.. ( depend on what are your crying for) but dont know what happen when with my family.. sa nda menangis pla.. even they crying so hard.. but I maintain steady.. hehehe ( my ego and felling not comfortable crying in front of them.. hahaha) Egois la sa ni... hmmm.. just dont want them more sad if I crying too.. hehehe

anyway.. Thanks God for this tears.. I am proud .. cause I can cry with with other... show them I am also have a feeling to share... ^^

huhuhuh... what this time?

Shalom

Ayo.. what I do that day?.. I attend class in the morning.. 8am.. then.. yea we got substitute lecture.. because our lecture got somewhere.. hehehe so...
after class.. to subaida.. got breakfast.. punya kuat mkn... eat double roti telur.. ish..ish...

then.. after breakfast.. got to library... then.. continue doing my project.. then got call from my group member.. hahaha.. he ask for the power point that we do before... hahaha.. so I check it?. then only two slide? how come.. hehehe we realize that we did not save it after we finish doing.. hahaha so my friend do it again.. just a progress presentation .. so not to worry.. hehehe

thenn.. got meet lec. to present.. but my friend@groupmate already present.. so I just come and sign attenden. hehehe ok la..
hehehe
the,,, got class after that... hehehe ask some question.. hehehet then,.. lec not answer my question.. hehehe never mind sir..

what I want to say?

Shallom

what up?

today not yesterday but.. before this.. after three days.. I think.. start from Friday..
we got seminar at Dwan MAS...start in the morning until 5pm... and then another day at saturday also the same time... hehehehe feel tired..
on that day... I think got something interesting.. that make me afraid of life...

WHY?

afraid that after graduate what do I do? hmmm.. feel nothing,,, ayo.. ok ... Puan told us.. starting from now.. you must plan you career.. think hard to do that.. without good planning.. what we can do in the future?.. hish....

anyway.. that a good seminar I think... but dont know what do people.. or other think bout it... at the first day... candidate can be over 2040 people.. but.. in the afternoon.. just a half of it.. feel ashame..
then at the second day.. wa.. maybe just around 1 thousand something like that in the morning... then at the afternoon.. maybe in five to eight hundred like that..
pity our UIL coordinator.. mybe they will ashame about UUM student.. you know why?.. because our speaker is not an ordinary person.. that person is a

General Manager of Human Resource for Proton Holding Berhad

then .. why they not interested?.. hehehe dont know why.. maybe because they got something to do maybe.. ya.. Me also got something.. but I did wait until the end..
Wiht mr Lim.. hehehe

then one thing that I not suppose to do.. hmm... maybe that my fault... dei, tu la suka jga tepi kain org,.. ok la.. next time I will not do the same thing... maybe it ok if I just keep silent then tell nonsense.. to them.. hahahaha... talk without know the truth... hmmm.. ok la... I will not... although that not a matter (she said la).. but I feel guilty.. hehehe so..

I AM SORRY

ok done...

yea.. on friday.. we off before the time to end.. hehehe
(tul ka?).. hehehe coz need to attend Friday student MASS.. yea.. when we got there (church).. it already.. half way of mass.. so... huhuhuh... syukur kmi slamat sampai jga... Thanks God... =)

the in saturday... after .. seminar.. got BBQ for CF community,.. ayo.. siok.. but.. I just can join them until 8.30pm.. bcoz aftr that I got discusion for our prject.. adei.. trpaksa meninggalkan mereka... ok la.. tak apa.. at least I got meet and join them walaupun seketika..

dlm kepenatan.. I off for meeting.. na... hehehe
thaks Groupmate.. you know me... they ask me to go back cause.. I look tired.. hehehe but.. I dont want.. I want to stay they until the discussion is over..(kunu la) then after that go back.. singga tmpat Jeremy.. got the picture from him.. yai.. sempat lgi... then.. blik.. tuk tidur...

hari2 yang memenatkan.. But thanks God.. because I still breath in the morning until now... hehehehe =)

anyway for today and yesterday...

Shalom..

Thanks God for everything... Amen,,

Yesterday.. hmm.. always use yesterday... ya never mind.. anyway yesterday .. just got letter from sist at Sarawak.. wonder what is it. because she told mhing that she get at KL.. huhuhu.. from KL to Sarawak and back to Kedah..
Yesterday open my portal to check envelop.. yea that is it.. date on 07 March.. aik?.. So ready to DPP office. the get that envelop.. huhuhu.. wonder what inside...
then reach room.. open it.. ayo.. a pack in red... And my name on it.. with full address.. wa.. sist.. open it.. hehehe.. thanks sist.. that nice.. like you what I like ah.. the color and the design.. I like it.. thanks again.. hehehe

=)

dont want to talk about it here.. just not want to make her mad to me again. hahahaha..

so.. yesterday no class but need to go to campus.. then ready for everything.. my laptop... matric card and wallet.. huhuhuhu.. that the important for me.. and also my phone.. but not really need it.. anyway.. hehehe
go to library.. that day.. so HOT.. (not just that day but also everyday is

HOT!!!

hehe. sist Ku also there.. so decide to eat luch at Subaidah.. with Sist Ku and her rumet and another friend... wa.. dont think sist Ku rumet is a funny person.. hehehehe adoi.. not talk too much there just listen..
then after that.. yea I forgot.. before that time .. just email my lecture about consultation hour.. hehe need to meet lecture about project.. afterr that get replay.. so for cosultation hour get in the afternoon.. need to wait..

so.. after lunch,,, gone to library again check for email. anda FB.. blog also.. hehehe then something ..
adoi.. feel sleepy.. (mkan banyak)..
so.. after 4pm.. got to meet lecture.. say bye to sist Ku.. by YM..
then,, huhuhu... thanks God.. everthing fine.. I like my lecture style.. hehe everthing he want to make us understand.. la.. anyway thanks ya sir.. hope you more better.. although you are not very well but you try to help us.. Gay god bless you.. Our lecture is foriegner.. so need to speak in english.. hahaha.. broken english.. adoi.. more thing that sir talk about but not evrything I remmember.. OMG.. in room ..I forgot everthing .hehehe.. sorry sir.. I waste your time.. hehehe

so Today.. ayo... got 3hours class start at 8am.. but only 1 hour class.. hehehe. happy... lalala~ but got assingment again.. adei.. sir..
after that gone to library... and oinline there get some nformation.. download tutorial from youtube.. atukoi.. need faster connection...
then.. Daddy Evan.call me.. then decide to eat launch at mall.. adei.. meet Mummy ther.. sist Annas.. sist. Galady and sist.Ria. wa so eat launch together..
then... that time I just leave my laptop or everthing at library.. I just trust that nobody will take it.. so alhamdulila.. everything fine..
and then.. going for koir practice.. la.. there are two option for me.. go for koir practice or going to FTM for microsoft talk.. but dont know how my leg know where to go.. hehe walk and walk reach to pondok at Guthrie lake.. and we sing along together... lalala~ only 7 of us there..not.. another one come late.. anyway.. we can practice... huhuhuhu..
going back with press..
then at room. open latop and on9 with DIGI campus.. adoi.. on YMm. then.. hehehe. .sorry... I fall asleep... tukoi.. Tired..
then wake up at 7.51pm.. adoi.. need to ready for meeting.. atukoi.. punyala.. then,,, nda sempat mkn.. so.. go to college bakery and buy some bread. huhuhu.. and walking to. PKP.. so many meeting like sist Ku told me.. ya sist. that a group meeting.. hehehe wa our meeting.. my job is to translate letter from english to Malay.. adoi.. my Bm not good la man.. cause my group mate is all foriegner.. so need to send letter to somebody in malay.. so need to translate it first.. heheh

atukoi.. pity me.. that a poor connection at PKP.. so packing. then going .back.. buy soyaRich with omega ye0s.. hehe
adoi sist Ku.. saw me.. hehehe but I am like in hurry.. so I did not hear her call me.. hehehe sorry sist.. I did not expect you are there.. hehehe
so at room.. just send the email.. then.. update blog.. so this is the story.. hehehe
Have a nice day ya.. =)

need to have more exercises..

Shalom...

still got pain on my back shoulder.. huhuhuhu
thank my friends for support...

this is my own fault.. I did not well aware of my healthiness....adn this is the result...
so think that I need to have exercise frequently..
huhuhu.. so think want to go for jogging after this.. la.. think la..
I dont know it will happen or not..
I hope so...hehehe
ok see ya...

Have a nice day!!

pain on my back shoulder...

Shalom..

not feeling well.. huhuhuhu every night there is a pain in my back.. dont know what but its sometime give me pain..
I feel hot on my shoulder muscle... ayo what happen..
not just this night.. but also last night... and the night before this..
maybe the night when I take bath in the night... and in the morning my shoulder pain..
hmmm.. what should I do?

I just can let it be like that..,,,

class cancel..

Shalom...

Thanks God for the guidance that You give me today...
we have presented our project proposal today without any trouble just a little.. one of our group member cant come early, how come?.
He think and heard that I told him yesterday the time is 3.30pm.. but our presentation time is 3.15pm.. so he did not come yet when we enter prof. room.. wa..
pity him... there is no attended for him today.. ayo...
I am sorry bro. maybe I did not give more explanation about our presentation today yesterday.. huhuhuhuh

so after that come for class web application development.. hmmm.. then waiting for lecture.. and he come.. then announce that class cancel.. hu?.. He told that he did not feeling well so class cancel then he will manage for class replacement on this week.. ok sir... Hope you feeling well after this.. much more better..
God bless you...

yea... what now.. stay awhile here la.. hope get a better idea for our web aplication project..
so ... how is it.. already borrow book about visual studio 2008 before this at library.. so hope can do some progress in this database thing.. la..
I hope so.. Ask for God..

God please guide me on this..
Amen..

Anyway thanks... GBU all... =)

What am I ?

Shalom... 
Happy Sunday everyone...
Hope this day more bless from God.


huhuhuhu.. wake up in the 8.00 in the morning... morning prayer.. and open laptop. wa.. there is many alarm ringing. my rumet alarm and our neighbor. adei... and I just ignore it..
continue editing our project proposal and in 9am my rumet awake..  Rumet why you did not wake me up? la he ask me? ayo?. Think he did not have class in the morning... ayo.. dont know because everytime I wake up early for class in 8am. but my rumet just lay over there in his bed.
Ayo I am very sorry rumet, I though that you dont have class.. then I dont want to disturb you.. dei.. what rumet I am?.. I dont know even understand my rumet... dont know his class... huhuhuh.
hmm .. what is it..  dont know..
 think about going early.. to library i this morning... I hope I can... sometime I plan to go.. but there is some thing prevent me to go..
don t know why..  ok never mind I want today... Go bless all of us..
Thanks be to God almighty.

Why so hot?

Shalom...

watch in 1.30 am I think.. forgot about time I reach my room... maybe taht time I think so.. because the time I wrote this post is 1.43am.. still not sleep... just reach my room  so feel tired and sweaty a bit..
open my room door... wa  it's dark hehe... Think my rumet visit his friend cause his black sandal are not there..
hehe rumet already sleep...
Come in.. atukoi.. hot.. HOT.. Hot.. HOT... !!!!! HOT although there is a fan in our room but it still not  enough to wipe it out from our room..
hmmm.. still hot... take off my clothe.. feel better.. 

And ask myself why is so hot now.. before this sem before la.. there is no hot time like now.. huhuhu. maybe that the one which we call "pemanasan Global".. I think everyone know it already.. but that no consciousness about this in every person.. include me.. how come.. I use electric power everyday.. and one cause of Pemanasan global .. but I still use it.. mimang nda pandai sedar.. tpi pandai merungut..

sedarlah Nicholas..

p/s Think about want to write a story..

hmm..

Shalom everyone..
got stuck here.. in PKP.. now my watch are 12.45am already... huhuhuhu.. there is smothing that I have to do..
with fast online connection..
before this we got meeting for our project proposal.. need to finish it up this night.. and thanks God for this we have already finish it.. hehehe with our proposal, gantt chart.. and the powerpoint slide show... thanks God again..
then after finish in 11.55pm I think.. my friends Yusiff and Ibrahim GTG.. so I stay.. for a while then downloading something...
yea.. Just this afternoon I format my laptop.. huhuhu.. got something problem with my windows... can open... hehehe
 you know .. Im a curious man,... so explore everthing.. changing.. deleting.. so and the result.. cant open windows... so thanks God.. everthing that relate to my project... my asgment . file.. that valuable.. are in my D parttition.. so that no effected.. just format C partition.. huhuhu.. but I lost everthing... my software... that installed.. My second operating system which is Ubuntu Linux.. also gone.. never mind got to instal it again la... huhuhuh..
now .. in PKP... still here,,, for install YM, new thing,,QQ international.. IM like YM but dont know how it was.. hehehe just want to try.. downloading flash player.. adobe reader... my sony ericsson pc suite also..
hmmm...
so .. yea already finish for YM..
hehe.. late night in PKP.. hahaha`~ hope that is no UK around,.,
dont want to be scold by them.. huhuhuh scary...
ayo tired.. sleepy...

I am not good on this ..

Shalom...
 Thanks God... for everything that You give me...
I am sorry for what I have done. I am a weak person..

Now I got stuck with my project... Assignment.... And I am not good on this,.. I cant handle it in a proper way..
nothing I can do.. than learn how to manage it... this only for my study purposes...
I cant handle it..!!

So if something that not in my intention..  Don't think that I will look for it..
I will live it for now.... don't play with heart.. I am not interest on it.. don't play with feeling because I am not good on it, don't moan with me, because I will not listen it...I hope you understand..
Disturbing me just make me uneasy.. then what can happen?... I will angry with you,..  ignoring you..
 don't push me.. other than I will stay away...

that not I want to say I do not need a friends..
but.. now I just want to stick together with my closest friends...
No even want to say don't want to say I don't want friends from distance..
but... my closest more understand me..
And I want it.. forever..

Forgive me.. I am not good at this..
I am not a good listener.. 

Adoi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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