anyway for today and yesterday...

Shalom..

Thanks God for everything... Amen,,

Yesterday.. hmm.. always use yesterday... ya never mind.. anyway yesterday .. just got letter from sist at Sarawak.. wonder what is it. because she told mhing that she get at KL.. huhuhu.. from KL to Sarawak and back to Kedah..
Yesterday open my portal to check envelop.. yea that is it.. date on 07 March.. aik?.. So ready to DPP office. the get that envelop.. huhuhu.. wonder what inside...
then reach room.. open it.. ayo.. a pack in red... And my name on it.. with full address.. wa.. sist.. open it.. hehehe.. thanks sist.. that nice.. like you what I like ah.. the color and the design.. I like it.. thanks again.. hehehe

=)

dont want to talk about it here.. just not want to make her mad to me again. hahahaha..

so.. yesterday no class but need to go to campus.. then ready for everything.. my laptop... matric card and wallet.. huhuhuhu.. that the important for me.. and also my phone.. but not really need it.. anyway.. hehehe
go to library.. that day.. so HOT.. (not just that day but also everyday is

HOT!!!

hehe. sist Ku also there.. so decide to eat luch at Subaidah.. with Sist Ku and her rumet and another friend... wa.. dont think sist Ku rumet is a funny person.. hehehehe adoi.. not talk too much there just listen..
then after that.. yea I forgot.. before that time .. just email my lecture about consultation hour.. hehe need to meet lecture about project.. afterr that get replay.. so for cosultation hour get in the afternoon.. need to wait..

so.. after lunch,,, gone to library again check for email. anda FB.. blog also.. hehehe then something ..
adoi.. feel sleepy.. (mkan banyak)..
so.. after 4pm.. got to meet lecture.. say bye to sist Ku.. by YM..
then,, huhuhu... thanks God.. everthing fine.. I like my lecture style.. hehe everthing he want to make us understand.. la.. anyway thanks ya sir.. hope you more better.. although you are not very well but you try to help us.. Gay god bless you.. Our lecture is foriegner.. so need to speak in english.. hahaha.. broken english.. adoi.. more thing that sir talk about but not evrything I remmember.. OMG.. in room ..I forgot everthing .hehehe.. sorry sir.. I waste your time.. hehehe

so Today.. ayo... got 3hours class start at 8am.. but only 1 hour class.. hehehe. happy... lalala~ but got assingment again.. adei.. sir..
after that gone to library... and oinline there get some nformation.. download tutorial from youtube.. atukoi.. need faster connection...
then.. Daddy Evan.call me.. then decide to eat launch at mall.. adei.. meet Mummy ther.. sist Annas.. sist. Galady and sist.Ria. wa so eat launch together..
then... that time I just leave my laptop or everthing at library.. I just trust that nobody will take it.. so alhamdulila.. everything fine..
and then.. going for koir practice.. la.. there are two option for me.. go for koir practice or going to FTM for microsoft talk.. but dont know how my leg know where to go.. hehe walk and walk reach to pondok at Guthrie lake.. and we sing along together... lalala~ only 7 of us there..not.. another one come late.. anyway.. we can practice... huhuhuhu..
going back with press..
then at room. open latop and on9 with DIGI campus.. adoi.. on YMm. then.. hehehe. .sorry... I fall asleep... tukoi.. Tired..
then wake up at 7.51pm.. adoi.. need to ready for meeting.. atukoi.. punyala.. then,,, nda sempat mkn.. so.. go to college bakery and buy some bread. huhuhu.. and walking to. PKP.. so many meeting like sist Ku told me.. ya sist. that a group meeting.. hehehe wa our meeting.. my job is to translate letter from english to Malay.. adoi.. my Bm not good la man.. cause my group mate is all foriegner.. so need to send letter to somebody in malay.. so need to translate it first.. heheh

atukoi.. pity me.. that a poor connection at PKP.. so packing. then going .back.. buy soyaRich with omega ye0s.. hehe
adoi sist Ku.. saw me.. hehehe but I am like in hurry.. so I did not hear her call me.. hehehe sorry sist.. I did not expect you are there.. hehehe
so at room.. just send the email.. then.. update blog.. so this is the story.. hehehe
Have a nice day ya.. =)

need to have more exercises..

Shalom...

still got pain on my back shoulder.. huhuhuhu
thank my friends for support...

this is my own fault.. I did not well aware of my healthiness....adn this is the result...
so think that I need to have exercise frequently..
huhuhu.. so think want to go for jogging after this.. la.. think la..
I dont know it will happen or not..
I hope so...hehehe
ok see ya...

Have a nice day!!

pain on my back shoulder...

Shalom..

not feeling well.. huhuhuhu every night there is a pain in my back.. dont know what but its sometime give me pain..
I feel hot on my shoulder muscle... ayo what happen..
not just this night.. but also last night... and the night before this..
maybe the night when I take bath in the night... and in the morning my shoulder pain..
hmmm.. what should I do?

I just can let it be like that..,,,

class cancel..

Shalom...

Thanks God for the guidance that You give me today...
we have presented our project proposal today without any trouble just a little.. one of our group member cant come early, how come?.
He think and heard that I told him yesterday the time is 3.30pm.. but our presentation time is 3.15pm.. so he did not come yet when we enter prof. room.. wa..
pity him... there is no attended for him today.. ayo...
I am sorry bro. maybe I did not give more explanation about our presentation today yesterday.. huhuhuhuh

so after that come for class web application development.. hmmm.. then waiting for lecture.. and he come.. then announce that class cancel.. hu?.. He told that he did not feeling well so class cancel then he will manage for class replacement on this week.. ok sir... Hope you feeling well after this.. much more better..
God bless you...

yea... what now.. stay awhile here la.. hope get a better idea for our web aplication project..
so ... how is it.. already borrow book about visual studio 2008 before this at library.. so hope can do some progress in this database thing.. la..
I hope so.. Ask for God..

God please guide me on this..
Amen..

Anyway thanks... GBU all... =)

What am I ?

Shalom... 
Happy Sunday everyone...
Hope this day more bless from God.


huhuhuhu.. wake up in the 8.00 in the morning... morning prayer.. and open laptop. wa.. there is many alarm ringing. my rumet alarm and our neighbor. adei... and I just ignore it..
continue editing our project proposal and in 9am my rumet awake..  Rumet why you did not wake me up? la he ask me? ayo?. Think he did not have class in the morning... ayo.. dont know because everytime I wake up early for class in 8am. but my rumet just lay over there in his bed.
Ayo I am very sorry rumet, I though that you dont have class.. then I dont want to disturb you.. dei.. what rumet I am?.. I dont know even understand my rumet... dont know his class... huhuhuh.
hmm .. what is it..  dont know..
 think about going early.. to library i this morning... I hope I can... sometime I plan to go.. but there is some thing prevent me to go..
don t know why..  ok never mind I want today... Go bless all of us..
Thanks be to God almighty.

Why so hot?

Shalom...

watch in 1.30 am I think.. forgot about time I reach my room... maybe taht time I think so.. because the time I wrote this post is 1.43am.. still not sleep... just reach my room  so feel tired and sweaty a bit..
open my room door... wa  it's dark hehe... Think my rumet visit his friend cause his black sandal are not there..
hehe rumet already sleep...
Come in.. atukoi.. hot.. HOT.. Hot.. HOT... !!!!! HOT although there is a fan in our room but it still not  enough to wipe it out from our room..
hmmm.. still hot... take off my clothe.. feel better.. 

And ask myself why is so hot now.. before this sem before la.. there is no hot time like now.. huhuhu. maybe that the one which we call "pemanasan Global".. I think everyone know it already.. but that no consciousness about this in every person.. include me.. how come.. I use electric power everyday.. and one cause of Pemanasan global .. but I still use it.. mimang nda pandai sedar.. tpi pandai merungut..

sedarlah Nicholas..

p/s Think about want to write a story..

hmm..

Shalom everyone..
got stuck here.. in PKP.. now my watch are 12.45am already... huhuhuhu.. there is smothing that I have to do..
with fast online connection..
before this we got meeting for our project proposal.. need to finish it up this night.. and thanks God for this we have already finish it.. hehehe with our proposal, gantt chart.. and the powerpoint slide show... thanks God again..
then after finish in 11.55pm I think.. my friends Yusiff and Ibrahim GTG.. so I stay.. for a while then downloading something...
yea.. Just this afternoon I format my laptop.. huhuhu.. got something problem with my windows... can open... hehehe
 you know .. Im a curious man,... so explore everthing.. changing.. deleting.. so and the result.. cant open windows... so thanks God.. everthing that relate to my project... my asgment . file.. that valuable.. are in my D parttition.. so that no effected.. just format C partition.. huhuhu.. but I lost everthing... my software... that installed.. My second operating system which is Ubuntu Linux.. also gone.. never mind got to instal it again la... huhuhuh..
now .. in PKP... still here,,, for install YM, new thing,,QQ international.. IM like YM but dont know how it was.. hehehe just want to try.. downloading flash player.. adobe reader... my sony ericsson pc suite also..
hmmm...
so .. yea already finish for YM..
hehe.. late night in PKP.. hahaha`~ hope that is no UK around,.,
dont want to be scold by them.. huhuhuh scary...
ayo tired.. sleepy...

I am not good on this ..

Shalom...
 Thanks God... for everything that You give me...
I am sorry for what I have done. I am a weak person..

Now I got stuck with my project... Assignment.... And I am not good on this,.. I cant handle it in a proper way..
nothing I can do.. than learn how to manage it... this only for my study purposes...
I cant handle it..!!

So if something that not in my intention..  Don't think that I will look for it..
I will live it for now.... don't play with heart.. I am not interest on it.. don't play with feeling because I am not good on it, don't moan with me, because I will not listen it...I hope you understand..
Disturbing me just make me uneasy.. then what can happen?... I will angry with you,..  ignoring you..
 don't push me.. other than I will stay away...

that not I want to say I do not need a friends..
but.. now I just want to stick together with my closest friends...
No even want to say don't want to say I don't want friends from distance..
but... my closest more understand me..
And I want it.. forever..

Forgive me.. I am not good at this..
I am not a good listener.. 

Adoi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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Already get this.. and I'm not good at this thing.. so no time for that thing...

What should I say?

yesterday.. hahaha
everything start with yesterday..  Not really yesterday la.. now its 12.28am in 2 of March 2010.. so yesterday I mean 28 of February. At PKP.. when we held a meeting that what I mention before..
My friend Yuseff(something like that spel) hehehe.. ask me.. where I from.. I said Sabah.. and he continue to ask.. you are Christian right?.. yups I replay.. oh... he noddle.. and he continue to ask again.. how mnay are there christian in sabah?.. so.. smething cme out of my mind.. why did he ask me this?.. there must be something.. asking myself why?..
And I answer majority of them are Christian.. sabah and sarawak.. And what he replay to me is out of my mind.. and he told me.. muslim are many in penisular.. but Im not like it.. he said.. although Im a muslin or islam.. I dont like it.. I most like to be Christian  he said.. what?.. Im thinking.. why you say that ? I ask him.. he replay.. because I see all christian is good.. that I like .many christian good.. and so I think Christian is a good religion than muslim... he said..( so a big clap hand for our christian fellow because show God love to everyone... how my friend say that if we don't do as what Jesus ask us to do)..  and I silent a moment..  our other group member which is Muslim fellow also listening.. but he remain silent.. and I dont know how I say this.. we have our own thinking about our religion and other religion and we are the one who decide which is  good and which is not.. and the conversation over.. we continue our work..
think about this story.. different from what I got when I and Evan gone to KP(pusat latihan memandu KP). there is one pak guard there.. there is a time that we change whose gnna drive that time.. so when Evan time to drive.. I lepak dngan pak cik tu.. and then mnay topic that we have discuss.. but dont know maybe he did not know my slang .. everytime I speak he turn his head to listen.. hehehe funny pak cik.. sometime I ask there is other he answer.. like I ask for the rain.. he answer with the kebun getah.. hahaha~
there is a time that the pak cik ask me..( not in english ah) hehehe
 are you a christian?..
and  I answer yes...
from Sabah?
yes..
many muslim in sabah right?
yea but in some place.. there is a place that majority is Muslim and some place majority is Christian..
oh... pak cik muslim..
O I see..
Dik (or whatever he call me .. I cant remember) in the world, the is no other religion that more better than Muslim.. muslim is the best choice for religion, and to convert.. its easy because we have ustaz that can teach you... we can pray 5 waktu.. everthing we can teach you..
I just Smile...
and the sme answer cme out to my mind.. "pak cik everyone have their own right to choose which one the right religion and what is the best religion for them.. so sometime maybe we said this is the best religion, but others said no, this is the best religion (point to other relegion). so cannot say exactly which is the best religion.. although we are in a different religion but we can live together if we want to, and respect other religion.." la pandai pla sa menjawab.. hehehe so the pak cik diam seketika.. and then He said.. Yes you are true... like now .. he mention about the church fire attack..
and then silent...
so I ask for for the rain.. because before this the is no rain right.. so .. he replay different.. hahaha... dont know what he said.. dont remmber....
then maybe he saw my jewel la.. the kayu in my right hand side.. and he ask .. "ada apa2 ka tu?" thingking that my azimat.. atukoi sa bilang dlm ati..so  I replay..
everyone have their belief now, so there is no such thing like that..
and he continue to speak. about azimat that can be found in sabah.. about the thing that can buka bisa ular tedung...
Oh my god (monolog).. I dont know.. hehehe.. there is no such thing that I can find tentang beda tu do tmpat sa.. tpi nda tau la klau tmpat lain..
what ever la pak cik,,
 hehe
 then Evan call me.. that my turn to lern driving.. hehehe
then what I have to do is.. keep thinking of what we discuss before..
lalalala~  I think that answer not exactly from me...
and If you were me what must do you say?
THINK about it..

A day for my take home midsem and project literature review.

Shalom..
Firstly thanks God for what did You have done to me. Everything is in Your will power.. Love You God.
yea where do I start?... from yesterday. Starving hehe.. but sa mls mo p mkan.. dont want to eat alone.
yesterday.. not really yesterday.. before that day.. my brother invite me for outing to Kuala Perlis.. huhu.. so sorry brother cant go.. so many (not so many la va) thing to do.. the "tanggu"ing work.. postpone.. and postpone assignment need to be done before today (monday). So hope you all well and safe pergi dan balik ya.. hehe.. God bless your journey.. dingar siok dari sist Ku.. va .. next time la k..

ok.. Yesterday we held ASAP meeting for our project literature review. yea.. dont know everything running smoothly even my group member is foreigner. haha.. but still can work together. with my broken English.. ok la there can understand.. yesterday 8.30pm at PKP.. huhuhu.. running on time.. Ibrahim my group member got problem.. laptop dia low bat.. so our leader.. Youseff, ok we can go back now and continue our work.. and send it to Nicholas.. so Nicholas you do the editing.. hahaha adoi.. ok ok.. sa bilang.. so go back la..
reach perwaja.. la meet Simon.. he told me that Aby already sang.. really?.. and after that press.. uuuuuu.. but  I did not stay there.. I know that I have job to do.. so... singga bli nasi ayam.. (ya masa tu sa dingar penyanyi dia nyanyi sumbang.. nda masuk kod kli) ayo sepat lgi mengumpat... adoi..
at blik.. la trus mkan.. Im sorry rumet.. sa mkna surang2... hehehe then... that night.. chat with sist Ku.. la dorang baru sampai dari kuala Perlis.. so sist Ku ask for taking bath.. lalalala~ go la sa bilang.. continue later.. adoi.. sist sorry.. after that .. sa tertidur pla..there is some message from sist.. but no replay.. haha.sorry sist.. masa tu sa sda tidur mati.. kogoruk sda..
wake up at 4am I think.. check for email from imbrahim.. yea got one.. so download it.. trus edit... insyaallah siap jga akhirnya... lalalala~.. then the other one also. take home question.. lec suruh google around to get bahan.. na google.. google.. got nothing .. dei.. lec ko tipu sa ka in?. adoi.. nasib ada jga la .. for supporting point.. lalalala~ buat ayat sndiri.. the selesai the last question... review both of the paper... so everything ok...
then trus mkan maggi.. lolz..
la lupa.. when  I wake up.. do morning prayer dlu va.. bru tingu Email..
so.. although got no class today(MOnday).. must go jga .. to submit both project literature review and take home question answer.
Got printing lu... and then .. after that submit it to lec room.. both lecture tiada dlm bilik.. na ikut ckap senior2 dlu2... kasih masuk sja di bawah pintu.. so apa lgi .. hehehe
ok paper already submitted .. turnitin and email reamain.. la.. lupa pla sa buku yg sa tulis password.. and class Id.. for turnitin. blik lgi la p DPP.. adoi... jalan kaki lgi.. I plan after finish everthing.. trus pi library.. na blik kolej pla lgi.. and then decide to online at DPP cafe.. la stu lgi masalah.. got problem.. hahaha~ how come I did not know how to use turItIn.. la... got to ask someone.. yea send SMS to Oudrey.. hahaha.. Thanks Oudry cause you replay my message although you in class.. huhuhu.. yea.. send to turnitin.. so for our project literature review... send it to Prof Hatim.. la ok..complete...
hehehe nakal pla tangan tuk check library.. check for borrowed book.. adoi.. every book is out of due date. la terpaksa lgi blik pi bilk tuk ambil buku.. ades... naik tangga lgi.. so gone to library..
Panas+berat+kurang tenaga... sa p libarary.. jln kaki lgi.. dei.. trus ksi drop book.. check la brapa hutang.. haha RM0.8o.. adei.. many times sa berhutang..
duduk depan TV.. ada pla c bro John.. sana.. then Lim our Kelantan friend.. seek for Man.Uted news... la cari la sndiri.. hehe
then starving .. jln keluar p simpan barang kejap.. pas tu.. mkn di uni cafe.. dei.. nda suka.. tpi biasa.. eat alone.. bancu milo.. mkan nasi lemak.. padas...
lepas makan masuk lib blik.. uit.. get my stuf from locker first.. pas tu masuk trus p tingakat 5.. then p sudut netbook.. la.. online la.. ada pla sist Ku on9 Ym.. so chat lu.. sambil2 chek email dan pesbuk.. edit my blog.. add some HTML..
then cari buku guna webopec.. la.. that time all computer in library got some problem.. especialy for seach computer.. nda ble buka webopec ni.. so use my own laptop.. plan to get some reference book.. la.. tau2 tapi lain pla.. trtulis pla sherlock holmes.. Dont know nowday I like to read book.. hehehe.. got that book.. then try to find something again.. la seacr for ghost story book.. hehehe.. la got one... I got two for Holmes story.. dlm mencari2 tu.. nmpak pla buku trtulis.. mother theresa.. uit.. sa buka.. first word that I saw is "JESUS".. wa interesting book.. so I take it..
va trun bwa tuk scan book.. hehehe la I got 5 books.. which is.. sherlock holmes stories, writen by Athur Conan Doyle, the silly side of Sherlock Holmes by Philip Ardagh, the women who walked into doors by Roddy Doyle , the analogy of ghost story by Richard Dalby and the Mother Theresa book.. la.. scan2 nda pla dpt yg Mother Hteresa punya book.. ask counter.. la.. ada masalh dia bilang.. so come tomorow. adoi.. apa mcm bro.. tu la va yg sa mo pinjam butul2 nda pla dpt.. na arap2 dpt bisuk.. klau ble la..
tpi mcm nda ja tu.. takkan dorang diskriminasi.. klau ada tertera nama YESUS sana. hehe
 anywhre cant wait for tomorw..
that all.. nothing interesthng.. but I know everything is on God hand... and everthing I have thats GOOD for me and other are from God..
La lupa pla sa crita pasal sist Prada.. yg bru blik mo blik p Sarawak dari LCCT.. durang punya flight kna tunda.. hehehe.. tey come to penisular just for masum.. hehehe.. good sist.. hehehe

A day for new way of life..

Shalom everyone..

Although not everyone cant read or want to read my blog.. (^___^) .. not a problem.. just to say about my life..
yesterday we got NUCS gathering.. wow.. perhaps I did not want to go... but my leg..walk by it on.. and I cant stop it.. so ... just go .. walking and walking.. sampai la sa di tmpat slalu gathering. yea jambatan diantara mall ngan library.. yea before I call my friend Evan.. but he cant go cause got meeting that night.
ok.. I walk alone and wonder what to do there.. come with smile I think.. hmm.. what happen?..
got there.. only six people there.. there is sist Ku, sist Joyce, Sist Anas, Sist GAlady, sist Anne and my beloved brother Bullert.. wa.. few of them,, never mind that a love of God..
yea.. say Hi to them,.. and a few minute later, we start our prayer lead by brother Bullert. actually for that night we plan for bible sharing. so the gospel is from:

Matius 7: 7-11 title "hal pengabulan Doa".

sesuai dng pa yg sa rasa.. hmm.. I cant share it here... Just want to brief thing what happen that time... huhuhuna after that Brother Lucky come, followed by President bro Vilerry with bro Sandy..
humm.. brother Bullert start the sharing session.. no.. why cant I know what happen to my brother.. what brother I am?.. why should I did not know?.. hmmm... I am sorry brother.. hope it going better... (sedih oh)
after that sist Anas.. talk bout her life befre.. yea keep the faith sist..
and then come for question bout Lent?... what happen on Lent time?.. so Brother give some explanation. some from bro Lucky.. but he did not ready yet.. so next time.. next gathering probably. I hope.. yea that right bro.. why should we did not do some classes about lent time before we enter Lent session?..  
and next.. Press want to do our NUCS vision.. yea it urgent .. hmm.. its raining.. move to foyer libray..
 la.. I keep quite that night.. hmmm.. I think so.. la.. discuss and discuss,, the is some objection, some suggestion at the end only one sentence. time not want us to keep discuss. that time clock menunjukkan jam 10.15pm.. so for Khaci must get their bus on 10.30pm.. so it must rush ..  closing prayer by bro Lucky pray for Santo Micheal the angel.
yea the way to go back then.. my brother .. huhuhu.. sedih dan terharu,, wa... cant explain what is it.. but it something that heat your soul.. a brotherhood.. hmmm.. cant say anything .. Just want to say.. I LOVE YOU BROTHER !  yea I mean it.. ^________^
yea that quite simple gathering I get that night.. but meaningful.. yea.. thanks for sist Ku. for encourage we to come.. really2 appreciate it sist.. thanks so much..
so I must come for must today.. give it all for God..
God please enlighten our way of life to You..   I give it all to You.. in Your hand. Amen

Blog also try to help me

What to say? in the middle of confuse and depressed this morning. Everything goes wrong.  I feel like to write@type for my blog. Give it all out from my mind, hope everything gone. sambil2 tu chat nga sist Ku with the music from MGradio. Actually for that morning I plan go for jogging and after wake up in the morning. tiba2 malas pla mo jln. banyak yang sa fikir. hmm.. everthing  I write down on live like Im dying.  After writing and publish. tak sangka Sist Ku pun ada blog. so One thing that I search before this are in her blog. the bible verse. so apa lgi, I add that application ( not really application, I dont know what) to my blog. After that.. I refresh my blog. and the first verse come out is this:

Serahkanlah segala kekuatiranmu kepada-Nya, sebab Ia yang memelihara kamu'
(1Petr 5:7) 

How come "It" know I'm in depressed, I'm in confuse with all my life. I share this to Sist Ku.. and she laugh at me.. because my blog know what I want. hmm.. what is it actually?.. is it just by accident or something else?.. I don't know but..  after I read it.. something happen... I feel like got some strength with everything I wrote  before... sedikit terubat.. huhuhuhu....
Before gone to attend class.. I pray to God almighty.. for His guidance for today. ( I forgot morning prayer) today fast again. just eat bread. hmm.. come to class with a smile. yea I feel it. like I'm in peace. maybe.. dont know. Thanks God.
there is something happen today. In the way to IT faculty.( everyday I just walk to class) my neck tie drop, and I simply come back and search it. that time I'm already entered faculty area. la.. I have to back again. but don't know I smile for it. The sun are hot today..  usually when I get in trouble like this.. na di sanala sa akan marah tak tentu pasal.. menyumpah. but today?.. thanks God I control my temper. hmm..
Today my group presentation. Thanks God everything running smoothly. although there is some error in our system.
NA today I escape la. How come I do that? there is nothing (just afraid because we didnt manage to do our work well) hope there is nothing big problem happen. Gone to foyer library. na tulung Chan my classmate look after her bag for a minute. she want to return her borrowed books. so.. while wait she come back. nampak pla dorang c Galady, Anas, John ngan Felecia. kedapatan escape class. So come to say Hi to them la.
gone to Varsity mall. dont know whta actually I want  to to.. just buy some pencil. And walk back. la.. In the middle of way back. I just know that I forgot my file. la back again to mall. in the way back to DPP. It rain la again I smile and take off my umbrella. dei. tak sangka ada pla gerai di DPP perwaja. perwaja event maybe. title JOm PERWAJA so buy Nasi Ayam la. 
Time to go back. In my room on my laptop, pasang DG campus.. and first thing I open is my blog. so what verse I get?.. that it is...

Waktunya telah genap; Kerajaan Allah sudah dekat. Bertobatlah dan percayalah kepada Injil!.
(Matius 1:15)

Don't know what is it. but I think it was a warn. hmmm.. God please help me to be more ready in my life. with You beside me, I feel strong and more comfortable in my daily life. AMEN  

live like Im dying..

When I publish this to my Facebook status.. there is some of my friends thought that was a title or verse of song. Yea .. that true .. there are many song use this quotation in their song.. so no wrong.. But I prefer  the mean of it. Don't know what its exactly but feel like that anyhow. life seems goes wrong that I can't manage it well. seems too much for me. thinking too much. really I already giving up with all this. Live like I am dying already. There was time that I want to end all of this. there was  time that I want its all over, there is a time that is no need for me here anymore, there is time I feel want to lay at coffin pillow. How much I think about it. that crazy but it is true. sitting at the middle of night. actually want to finish up all my work, assignment take home midsem question and everything. But why I'm just sitting ? there is no progress. sitting and sitting with a blank mind. waa!!!!! Use to listen MGradio listen and listen. that night that no problem on my DG campus. open My YM account. Get buzz from Sist Ku , Prada and Bert. hmm.. Sorry Im not in a good mood. still hahahaha,, hehehehe,, or lalalala~ . that not the way is for true. sorry.
I'm really thank full to sist Ku cause of you sharing. its a good example for who need a light in their life. yea God never abandon us. Pity for God, every time I use to blame Him.  I grumble to Him. With all my life seems goes wrong, I protest. God never hear me. I lost so far away. arggh.. So this is Lent time? Its too much for me. I cant handle it.
sometimes I said to You... leave me alone. But God not like that. I know God with me. that night You also with me. Share with me. but I cant pick it all up. I'm sorry God. Most of time I disappointing You. but You never give up. Lord help me to be like You, that not simply give up with all thing I face everyday.  Lets I do it by myself. I don't need you. but? why seems I cant do that every thing I do, every thing that fail to do, every difficulties that I gone through. I really depending on You. Every times  I say I love You. But how much I mean it?. not a little but it too much hurt You. What I have done ? Do I like Jesus our savior dead again on the cross for second times? No. I don't want to that again.
Yea I don't need You? What does a little ant in front of You?. But You see us as Your own son. most valuable creation. But I didn't listen to You. Listen to Your voice.
In the times of difficulties, I blame You. God didn't do His work. Yea how rude I to You.Who did not do their work actually?. God?.. no absolutely not. it all by myself. I did not give it all to God. How I treat God ? do I do the perfect thing? How much did I worship You, how many times that I say thanks with full heart to You? I dont know because I did not do that. Sometimes I thanks to you just like that.
And a little ask from Me God.. Lets teach Me how to love God. I don't know how to love You in a prefer way. Lets do it together God. train Me. All I give to You..

malam..

Thanks God for the rain petang tadi...
suda beberapa lama hujan tidak turun.. rumput-rumput separuh sda yg kering.. kekuningan.. tpi tdi petang hujan turun.. harap-harap dpt lihat semula kehijauan rumput macm dlu..
ingat tntang rumput tntang hujan tntang kering.. ingat pla dngan pa yg sa lalui nowdays..
everything goes wrong to me.. lazy, cepat mngalah, cepat marah, like to hide sumthing, pandai merajuk tidak tntu pasal.. dan bnyak lgi perkara yg nda baik..
lebih lagi.. nowday sa jarang berdoa... this Lent session.. dont know what to say la.. feel far away from God.. kaki berat untuk melangka.. dan kadang kala sa lebih suka berdiam diri.. to be alone.. alone.. and alone..
with friends.... smtimes with a fake smile.. but Im happy with you guys.. handphone.. yea Im sorry for who call me but I didnt answer it.. feel sorry.. YM sumtime I replay.. smetime not.. sorry again.. Im in blank.. mencari sesuatu.. like a grass waiting for water to be green again..
this night chat with sist Ku.. thanks sist for adding me as your friend in YM.. sharing something.. sist with her story at guthrie lake petang tdi.. buduh tu org sist.. masuk pada bebanan diri.. la dont know what do we talk out lgi pas tu..
banyak..
she recomend me to listn on line worship song.. which si radio from Indonesia . yea siok.. sempat lgi saa minta sist supaya request lgu mukjizat itu nyata..
yea sist ada share tentang 15 minutes for silent time.. yea sist I need it.. feel far from God.. in time of Lent.. banyak cobaan yg perl dihadapi.. in time to pray.. saya tidak dapt mnghayati satu pun doa yg sa ucapkan.. dalam doa fikiran sa banyak menerawang kepada perkara lain.. tiada ketenangan dlm jiwa.. tidak dapat menerima kehadiarn Tuhan dlm doa sepenuhnya..
Iman sa semakin goya...smakin sa cuba utk berdiri smakin berat bebann yg sa hadapi..  apakah semua ini..Oh God help me to be strong.. give me Your guidance in my daily life , to be more  strong to face thorn of life..  

every time .. in my life..  I fail... fail to do my job for You..

in the time of failure, I did it by myself.. In time of joy.. I enjoy it by myself.. I always forget about you.... and all bout thing you have done for me.. I forget to thanks You for all that You have done, I forget you when I'm in need.. I did not ask You.. for You blessing.. I do it by my own.. and it hard to me.. sering kali saya membelakangi Mu Tuhan.. Separate You from my daily life.. although I always say I love You Lord.. but how much I did until now Lord?.. I see nothing... Everything  I give is just sadness to You..  

God Give me light and I will see the way to come closer to you..
Amen...